Violent

History of Violence...i kinda like it,though it was just that bit too..graphic sometimes...oh well,it was my most-eagerly anticipated movie of the century,if only because i was dining,walking around town,killing FOUR + hours of time...sigh,shouldn't meet too early if watching midnite show...

sianz...while walking around n killing time,i came across 3 items that would have made better gifts..(actually i think i can find better gifts even if i just close my eyes and grab whatever items i can..oh watever,back to the point..) i found THREE items,any one of which could hav made a much much better gift...sianz...why lemme see how it could have been,instead of letting me see how it could be?kns...

Why am i still awake??

sianz...i dunno wat i'm doing online still...its not like i have anything to do...sianz...

tempted to go fr@nz ferdin@nd concert next feb,but...i realize i'm not really into them in the first place...+ i dunno them well...sigh...

end of year period is a depressing time...

i am hungry...

i need to spend my time more constructively...

been a little nostalgic the past few days...
i haven't walked around town alone,with my earphones blasting,for a long time...
i haven't walked into 7-11,bought a bar of chocolate for my sugar kicks along with a drink n called it lunch for a long time..
i haven't wandered around aimlessly,with no idea of where to go next,for a long time...
i haven't stood and browsed books at kino for a long time...
i haven't boarded a bus and see where it takes me for a long time...
i haven't passed the istan@ for a long time...
but i have been faithfully and consistently bleeding all these years...

roar~

WHAT MODULES TO TAKE?!?!?!?!?!

For Now

all thanx to clement for ur recommendations..

roar~

WHAT MODULES TO TAKE?!?!?!?!?!

it's normal if u dunno what the heck i was talking about on the last post...

i can't find it...how come?i thought the point of having however much gigs of email space means i dun hav to delete any mail,which i'm pretty sure i didn't...but why can't i find it?f**k.
ok,it's nothing serious.i'm just a foul-mouthed heathen.

i'm a sucker for punishment...then again,masochist i am not...

i feel like being a swearing heathen...

i had yet another sandman this morning...incredibly depressing,as these things go...took a step toward the realm of pessimism...wat shall i say about it?hmm...aunt was in it,she reprimanded her,n i sorta got blamed...damn...

A Message to Me...

hl...c'nzh szh xlnv zmw tlmv.

c'nzh vev
dvmg gl gsv tbn rm tbn nlimrmt drgs bzm..zugvi gszg dv dvmg gl PZK gl yfb hgizdyviirvh,yfg rm gsv vmw dvmg gl QK Oryvigb gl yfb rmhgvzw,xfa PZK xlow hgliztv Wfm Szev!! Zmbdzb ylftsg hgizdyviirvh zmw xslxlozgv ov,gsvm ylftsg ofmxs slnv. Dvmg lfg ztzrm rm gsv vevmrmt gl yfb wrmmvi zmw ivmgvw exwh zohl.szw wrmmvi,dzgxsvw lmt yzp,gsvm tlg wldm gl kivkzirmt ulmwfv.ivhfogh dviv wvkivhhrmt.glgzoob hfxpvw.

c'nzh
dlpv fk vziob rm gsv (xlow zmw izrmb) nlimrmt. Zh vckvxgvw,gsv ivhfogh dviv ovhh gszm hzgrhuzxglib,zmv r’n zoivzwb yvrmt prmw rm nb zhhvhhnvmg.olfhb ullw,olfhb trug uiln olfhb vc.ls dvoo,rg ivzoob wlvhm’g nzggvi gl svi zmbnliv,r tfvhh.qfhg zmlgsvi trug hsv ivxvrevw.

dvmg lm gl gldm.gslftsg rg’w yv ovhh xildwvw,yfg r wrwm’g uzxgli rm gsv fhfzo hfmwzb xildw.zmbdzb hkvmg z yrg lu grnv yildhrmt zg prml,r orpv.olmtgrnv hrmxv r hkvmg grnv orpv gsrh,qfhg dzoprmt zilfmw zolmv znlmt gsv xildw zmw yozhgrmt hlmth zdzb dsrov r dzopvw.ambdzb dzmgvw gl xsvxp lfg gsv hslvh,yfg r’n hgroo fmwvxrwvw.r hslfow wvxrwv hllm,uirwzb zrm’g gll uzi zdzb.

zugvimllm,sfmtib zmw grivw.dvmg lm yzxp gl QK,hovkg lm gsv yfh.evib grivw.ylftsg ofmxs slnv,dzgxsvw gsv 2mw gszr hsld.zugvi gszg,gllp z mzk groo mrtsg.hrts,kozmmvw gl ozhg groo mrtsg zmw hovvk vziob.dvoo,gsviv tlvh hovvkrmt vziob.dzgxsvw ‘xibrmt lfg olev,rm gsv xvmgiv lu gsv dliow’.wvkivhhrmt.

hl.sviv xlnvh gsv kzig gszg dziizmgh gsv tryyvirhs r’n dirgrmt rm mld.
2 bvzih ztl,nb qlb dzh uvog rm z xzy drgs ovtvmw.nb wvvkvhg rnkivhhrlm lu nb qlb rm 2003 c'nzh vev rh gsv hrtsg lu gzmtorm nzoo,wvxlizgvw rm c’nzh ortsgh,kvlkov xildwrmt gsv vmgizmxv lu hsv nzoo.
gsv hznv grnv rm 2004,nb wvvkvhg rnkivhhrlm lu qlb dzh z svzig lu ilhv kvgzoh.
rm 2005,r szev vmlfts lm nb szmwh qfhg gibrmt mlg gl yv wvkivhhvw,mvevinrmw qlb.

nzbyv hsv’w uvvo zmtib ru r hzb gsrh (kilyzyob mlg gslfts.zmbdzb r’n mlg hzbrmt,r’n gsrmprmt.zmw gbkrmt rm z hxirkg slkvufoob ml lmv fmwvihgzmwh.)
r’n gsrmprmt zolmt gsv ormvh lu svi mlg ivzoob trermt gll nfxs gslftsg gl sld hfxpb nb trugh ziv.zh hsv hzrw,svi vckvxgzgrlmh uli z uirvmw ziv dzb oldvi gszm gszg uli svi ylbuirvmw.r’n qfhg 1 lu nzmb mld,hsv kilyzyob dlfowm’g vckvmw svi vmvitrvh lm nv,hsv szh nliv rnkligzmg gsrmth gl gsrmp zylfg.orpv,svi wfgrvh rm gsv xlnn,svi ufgfiv,svi uznrob,gsv nzm hsv'h tlmmz nziib,gsv xsrowivm hsv’oo szev.rm hslig,svi oruv drgslfg nv. (mlgv gl hvou,gsrh rh xzoovw 'Nlermt Lm'.blf hslfow uznrorzirav blfihvou drgs gsrh xlmxvkg.)
Hlnvgrnvh,r dlmwvi ru r hslfow qfhg glgzoob tvg lfg lu svi oruv.dvoo,mlg gszg r’n evib nfxs rmeloevw rm rg mld,ru zg zoo.r qfhg tvg gsv rwvz gszg r’n srmwvirmt svi kiltivhh drgs Nlermt Lm yb wilkkrmt z nvhhztv lm svi vevib mld zmw hsvm.lm gsv lgsvi szmw,r nzb yv levivhgrnzgrmt nb rnkligzmxv.zg ovzhg r lxxfkrvw nbhvou lm c’nzh vev,dzhm’g hl yzw.hrts...

r wlm’g ivtivg nb wzipvi lfgollp.zg gsv evib ovzhg,rg nzpvh gsv qlb r lmxv szw nliv yvzfgrufo.mlg gszg rg'h mlg yvzfgrufo yb rghvou.qfhg orpv gsv wzipmvhh lu gsv mrtsg ufigsvi zxxvmgfzgvh gsv yvzfgb lu gsv nllm.

r’n grivw. Ru blf ziv ivzwrmt gsrh,zh rm blf ivzoob nzmztv gl nzpv lfg dszg r’n hzbrmt,trnnv z svzwhfk xzm?prmqz vnyziizhhrmt ovs,szsz...ru blf qlm’g pmld nv,blf kilyzyob wfmml vczxgob dszg r’n gzoprmt zylfg,hl...trnnv z svzwhfk ru blf dzmmz,ru mlg gsvm rg kilyzyob wlvhm’g nzggvi zmbsld.

Nviib Xsirhgnzh gl gsv dliow.

of deflation and empty glasses-thought-full

on friday morning,i was pretty happy...though it was a long day at work (with kids running around half the time),but still,i was pleased with the results...

by friday night,i was a little deflated,but i thought it was alrite,cuz i still had time...

by sat morning,i was a little apprehensive...harder than i thought..obviously i dun tink enuff..

by sat nite,i was pure glass-not-full...i tink its gonna be one spectacular flop...

on hindsight,i suppose i had been optimistic at the start?never thought that'd happen to me..now i know better-dun ever be optimistic,being realistic with a touch of pessimism is enuff...

one.huge.load.of.crap.

ending hols...kns...

ok..so...
results out le,overall improved by abit..unexpected results from modules in both good n bad ways,but nvm,haha...neway saw a lot of people on mon,after work..

saw meiyun,mingwei,weiming,alvin530...tokked a bit...mingwei looks super hap with his tats,alvin looks more refined,haha...

sianz,holidays ending soon le,i'm still broke n my room's still messy...comp problem's still not resolved,still havn't met up with witchy...no carolling for me this year,i bloody hate the crowds...

neway happy today,new comics,haha...ult secret,new academy x,etc...long day at work,legs sour sour...tired...eyes gonna pop out liao,kns...

1/3 holidays gone...

(fmi,i'm talking about tuesday here)
and my room's still a mess...yes yes,then i shud go do sth abt it 'stead of whining all the time...hey wat r u,my mum?nvm...great day at work today..n by great,i mean very few people bugged me at work...so,its not that great for my boss...nvm,again...

i must finish castlevania quickly,ah boh x'mas come le n i still havn't finish my quota...by x'mas i need to take out my 2 fave games again n start *verb*-ing things all over again...well,punisher was part of the plan form the start,but godofwar i wanna revisit cuz i damn gian after seeing its pic on a magazine cover,haha...maybe if i finish castlevania early,i can sneak in time to try out ult spiderman again,haha...sianz,was looking fwd to that one...oh well,super sianz...n i had yet another sandman again last night,kns...

on the bright side,at least the threat of throat ulcer has abated now,if that of sickness has not...i shud just find 1 day n sleep my day away ar...just 1 day...

n,i've finished preacher...apart from the ancient history,that is...cool,though i'm thankful for the relatively cartoonish art..any more realistic n i think i'll puke...

n the results r out in less than 10 days time...wth,real morale booster...

n i hope i get to meet up with witchy,who also ran the std chartered run...21k somemore...

yes.i've hoped again today...1 step closer to the realm of glass_half_full-ville.

yay.

drool me to death...

bloody hell,i think i may get a visit from the ulcer again...

of squeezing stress balls and ...

had quite a bit of fun throwing away my old readings while clearing my storage box just now...i'll probably never use them again neway...wasteful,half of them i've never even read before...

dammit,i can't get away for next sat...so.damn.sianz.i wonder if witchy's unhappy...probably not...

sigh...i am stupid...n i am stupid..wait,thought i said that already?am i proving my point unnecessarily here?i have done,am doing,n will probably continue to do things that r stupid n self-detrimental...

oh bloody hell,quit squeezing the stress ball already!!where do i find my moses?sigh...for ur sanity's sake,i hope i'm not making much sense tya...

1 week down...

had lunch today...mushroom soup was nice...neway went to watch HP n goblet of fire after that...din plan to watch,until Gna mentioned some guy dying,haha...cool~neway it is the darkest of the series...good...neway disappointed that the skull guy i saw from trailer wasn't really a skull guy at all,just skullish-mask-wearing kakias of the Bad Guy..oh well,the hooded statue in the graveyard was cool,so it makes up for that...

sianz,went to yih cblc,n co-op today before meeting for lunch...both closed..how swey can i get?kns...oh well,go next week then...

despite my reservations about the weis book,i always seem to find myself held,as long as i start reading...same for SW books also...acquired tastes,i suppose,haha...just a bit sian that i'll have to wait a long time for the next book in the respective series to be published...
sianz,both books finished...n despite my intention to read sth non-fiction,i just can't bring myself to do it...not if its outside of the Must-Read category of non-fiction i.e. module readings...so.guess i'll just go library to hunt for fiction then :P yay~!

hmm...parts of wat clement posted hit pretty close to home...i suppose its a universal truth,much like wat Tim B.rn.rd said some months back...oh well...

i hadn't realized that its only been a week since my exams officially ended...felt like a long time...-->i've been in holiday mood since before my last paper,sigh...dr BML said that we had nothing to worry about,regarding thailand...i only hope he wasn't being too kind...nehow,there're still 4 more that require the miracle of moderation...sigh...

i hope my cap doesn't drop...i hope my sis goes out on x'mas eve...i hope i kiss n make up with my comp,though i havn't initiated the making up (n its up to me to do that cuz it's kinda stupid to expect it to initiate anything ain't it?), i hope i can stop coughing soon (thanx much,now i noe i wun die from this cough,no need to demonstrate its ineptness liao),i hope i wun make the wrong choice come next sem,i hope i'll be in the position to make a choice come next sem,i hope i'm able to not work next sat...cool.so much hope in my life,who needs pessimism?shoo~pessimism can ____(verb, present tense,to be filled in by the reader) off now,i have my (free) hope with me...

tired...my room's still a mess...i need to clean it up soon...
Operation Pillow Headbutt commencing soon...

Comics

i just had a sudden urge to blog about them...

i really like Preacher, though it'll probably rattle the cages of the hardcore religious

Losers are cool...hope the movie plans go well..

Y:The Last Man also nice...

haven't really developed an interest in Constantine,but maybe i'll start sometime in future...now Preacher is enough for religious themed..

needless to say,none of these would survive intact were they made into movies...not even R21...oh well,can't have it all...

bored...

sigh...ok,6th dec now...

half empty glass - my room's still a mess,ult spiderman can't load,my comp's still giving me the cold shoulder n x'mas is coming..great.

however,if the glass is half full,i have completed x-men legends 2,i still am interested in castlevania,n i have met up with clubber,n planning to meet witchy soon...n i can always bring punisher outta retirement to tide me thru x'mas :)

well,ran the very short dist on sunday,pretty shiok...saw a few frens there...then played soccer on monday,n then realized that i was working later that day.so had to bia cab down to oc,heavy rain somemore..on the brightside,i said no to a salesperson of the opposite gender,haha..YES!!1st step taken to not be a kz anymore!!neway came home with a sore back,bum and legs..+ feverish...slept it off..feel better now,tho still a lil' feverish...

so woke up to watch aeon flux solo...lucky never watch yesterday,ah bo they confirm complain like crazy...erm,not very good la,i prefer sky high,though clubber seems to have a less-than-flattering opinion of it :P then went to town to buy some stuff...n its a headache..wat to buy??i need witchy...

oh well,hope i get to go to sch early tml,wanna go lib check out some books...gonna do my pillow headbutting now..

Finally...

goal...after so long...finally...

Quasi-Holidays

well...i almost wanted to leave it till the 6th,so that there's a nice one month break...why?nothing,one month just sounds better than 22 days lor...doesn't matter

neway...about the much anticipated exams...
well,nothing much to talk about la...as i told yan,i was so depressed about my 1st 2 papers cuz i thought i'd bwang...then my 3rd paper cheered me up - no way can any of my papers top my 3rd paper in potential bwangness...kns...now left with 1 last paper on thu...open book..good u say?quite the opposite...open book=higher expectations of factual information.open book=i cannot just bring my writing stuff to exam hall,but have to bring my notes also.open book=good for people who CAN make notes...sianz...oh well,just waiting for it to be over and done with...

on to next topic..HOLIDAYS!!so,inspired by domee's good example to set a number of Stuff To Do in holidays,here's my list...
broke.yay.but not exactly jobless,so not too bad...just go for more low expenditure activities,which leads me to-->
1) games.
cool.acquired 3 new games..x-men 2, ult spiderman, and castlevania...nothing at the violence level of punisher,but not many games top that...tsk,world's not perfect,so i shall not complain too much...so,hope to finish all games before term starts,which is kinda boh loh leng..still,nice to set a goal for myself...n its as low expenditure as it gets :)

2) go take ippt...why?no,i'm not siao on,i'm just broke...go earn money...nothing much to be said...

3) meet up with frens...some frens have been sooo~~ busy during the term...no chance to see Him,other than His dazzling skills on the court at src...n meeting up with clubber,n witchy!!haha...din meet up last hol,longtime no see le...

4) clear my room.cuz its fulla useless n crappy stuff lying around...my cupboards n shelves have loads of rubbish oso...

5) settle my comp. yes,despite clement's best efforts,its still dying...

6) i've run outta patience...i wanna go headbutt my pillow...now.

sianz...time is running out,exams coming,n i still have assignments due...getting back wake-up-call assignments soon,can't wait... -.-

saw this on tv few days back

she: "...you told them to not be disheartened,cuz life is full of storms,they'll get through it..i know you are in the middle of a thunderstorm right now,but you'll get through it right? sob..."

...right

reminds me of 'the perfect storm'...well,it passed,as all storms must...the crew of the ship however...oh well,if thinking happy thoughts=happy,why not? :)

sianz,rained in the morning the past few days..not conducive to waking up early/on time to do productive work (as planned)...oh well,man proposes,god disposes,haha...

Quota...

ok,i've fulfilled my wake-up-call quota of the semester liao...more likely 3 hit combo of wake up calls...darn...neway got trapped in cine just now after work,cuz of heavy heavy rain...dammit,i hate thunderstorms...sigh,no more whining...i'm gonna be productive...

end of the week...eh?no,beginning of the week...

friday
long day...saw witchy on the bus just now while going home,,so happy :) long time no c le...tokked for the duration of the journey,somehow she managed to cast some light on my view towards the future-i look like i'll work in a bank meh?haha...neway at least she said i dun have gahmen worker look,so i wun be a 'cher...hopefully...neway...supposed to sleep early so that can go sch tml to work on homo essay.no plan survives contact with the enemy intact.oh well,just hope i manage to get some work done tml...sianz...got a 3-hit combo coming up next week(dammit,shud b this week)..kns,lucky next week (dammit again la,shud b this week!!friday is the 1st day of the week~!!!) super free week...no tut at all..yay~~brucie's cool,so welfare!!neway just had a realization while tokking to witchy that brucie is super duper knowledgeable la...+ he knows quite a number of regional languages,despite being a farang...he manages to make the module interesting, with his many stories,n that comes with experience,lots of it...oh well,hope i take more of his modules next sem...

oh well,gonna be productive le...

grouchy old fart...

darnnit...long cold day yesterday,lucky i was at work (which i was late for)...i hate cold n rainy weather...n woke up today to a cold morning...din wanna get outta bed..i hate cold weather...n was late for tuition today...n was told that there were some discrepancies from work yesterday...dammit,it must be the cold weather...i hate cold weather...

just for now...

thanx to all who bothered to read the myopia-inducing post...nothing much,really...it's passed,will be back to my usual,normal,optimistic,glass-half-full,sunny,cheerful self now..

right~~...

don't know what to make of it

a little disturbed with wat i witnessed today...i suppose it is not surprising...i don't believe there was any malice involved...but i dun think she understood the insinuations and implications of what she said...still,said friend was concerned,n i suppose that balances the scale somewhat...but...i wonder how many people have been...misrepresented so far...illustrates the fallibility of human memory,i suppose...

becoming the enemy...

read about this from the papers (yes i do read the papers,sometimes)
well, from my fave leader's mouth,apparently...
"...[He] told me to [do this]...[He] told me to [do that]..."
he sounds exactly like the people he claims are evil (not that i'm disputing that point)...becoming like the people he denounces...so,in addition to stupidity (in my opinion), he has added fanaticism(?) to his list...

how come they like to think that they so special that He speaks to them?they have a hotline to Him??speed dial on their cellphone?email?msn?

sorry for the lack of detail (hopefully)...i just thought that with the way we are being so chummy with them, it'd be unwise to speak too -vely about this shining beacon of the light...wait i kena charged or watever,i scared...

a sidenote,i should get a memento mori..not that i need one (does anyone?),but just for the sake of having something that could serve as one...what can it be?
...rambling...

...

walking should be done facing the front
and look back regularly to see where one tripped.
note that the operative word here is regularly.
walking while looking backwards ALL the time,
only brings about a fall, sooner rather than later.

yet what is there to look forward to,
on this path upon which u trod?
the light at the end of the tunnel?
and if that light shines from the head of a train?
what then?

Happy Birthday

to Mr Pop,top level executive,family man Yan...

and of course not forgetting...


the irreplaceable,multi-tasking,legendary (an understatement,of course), "phwoar-satellite!!"-ing,"woa-u're-good"-ing, (recent) plane flying,busy,top-scoring,etc.......(yet another understatement,of course) Legend!!!

updaaate~~

well,i'm obliging clubber...so,what matter of interest happened to me recently?

... ... ...

... ... ...

absolutely none...nothing of interest happened,haha...well,except i bwanged midterms (oops mentioned that liao)...neway,back to work,yesterday n later...longtime no work le,feels good...ok,feels different..i need something different from planning study trips to sch over the weekend..not that its any productive,but better than no work done..then again,some work done = no income...so,effort to generate some revenue this weekend...hope i get to reading readings for essay later,very lagging le..

waiting for return of midterm can b...depressing...just hope that i get a respectable score,so as to speak...well,at least something brightened my (fri)day...heard something i never thought i would hear in my lifetime..then again,it has but miniscule effect on the overall results...oh well,hope i can do more of his modules in future..

n i hate the external module...lecturer super longwinded,in a naggy way...so thats 2 times the bwey-lun...i miss the previous one...more interesting,lunch breaks in tutorials...sigh,darn,good things dun last long (they never seem to)

oh well,before i finish off with yet another meaningless post,gotta say this again: i hate rain...esp at night...sigh...

gundammit

sianz...great last few days...bwanged midterm,defensive mistakes,missing towel,comp dead for e near future,caught in heavy rain (which i absolutely luurve~..)...sian sian sian...

neway i'm broke for bey0nd concert,sianz...then again,i'm not exactly a fan la...oh well,missable (for me at least)...

watched k!ll b!ll 1 today,way cool~~

i just realized,some songs played backwards really...are not incoherent.then again,it didn't sound as..menacing as i tot it'd be...oh well...

i'm done here...nothing to say...except the usual whining,of course...sianz sianz sianz....

heavy rain just now...hope no cramps...

Dying...

sianz my comp dying...everything dying,yay...ok i exaggerate,not everything...neway was happy,played bball on sunday,longtime no play le..at least,not with other people..saw, n played with yc oso...long time din c him le..he asked about andy oso,he always asks about andy wenever he sees me..neway saw faye oso,longtime no c oso..he got a tat on his arm..cool..neway after tt went NyouASS to do something...ok,not exactly productive,but better than if i had went home...

neway was working on sat,i think 'losers' n 'wanted' are cool~haha...of course, the must-have dosage of violence n death,hehe...but s dragon said, itd b cool if 'losers' got made into a movie...well,dun hold much expectations for that happening-prob will get censored till there's no point watching it at all..

speaking about movies,i hope someone does a peter jackson on dragonlance...hopefully the chronicles...if not then the summer of chaos oso can...or maybe the legend of hum@..but doubt anyone will wanna make movie that feature gods..not hip,i think,haha..

hmm...wat else shud i tok about,to while my time away while my essay awaits my attention?
...
sianz,i just realized that my sis has metal gear solid 3 (damn,she damn hap la)...started on it a lil,though din save anything yet...resist the temptations...n ultimate spiderman n x-men legends 2 coming out soon...gaming peak period...i really shud play punisher again after exams,i miss the tortur-ahem..action.

oh well,so happy to report that i'm drowning in deadlines n midterms (n yes,i noe i deserve to burn for being here wen i shud b studying/doing work)...oh well,i just taking a break ma,mwahaha...sigh...

"sick n tired of being sick n tired..."

old frens...

hmm...do realize that i'm tokking abt things that r a few days old,but,nvm..just that i'm using a thematic, instead of a chronological, approach..neway saw trish n cel on friday,after dinner with flo n gang...longtime no c them le...well,e former,neway...
sunday,surprised(?) that she talked to me...maybe i shudn't be,dunno...remains my most inknameflagtemple of all...oh well...
mon saw ylup,tokked a bit with him oso...told me he still keeps in touch with owen-on-drugs...mildly surprised...nice to c frens from long ago...
saw eric on the bus just now...tokked a lil,but feel like have less common things to tok abt le...but he was still dark,n beefy..haha...oh well,good luck for future endeavours...

2 down...how many more to go?

21-09-2005

MUST REMEMBER!!!!! ang replied to my msn,in less than 2 min!!wait,no..make that-ang replied to my msn,period!!
haha...hope he settles his admin stuff soon...n start having fun...string wood...

Long Sleep

after school on friday,went home to get my stuff,then bia'd to heeren for flo dinner...tokked cock for long time after finished food,cuz q damn long..met gerald there oso..the girls told us sth abt him tt e guys never tot abt (cuz if we did,it'd b just plain weird)..legend is irreplaceable,cuz we were basically tokking abt him,haha...excerpts from his not-yet-published biography...
neway i oso realized i dun like heeren marche very much oso,but pretty alright on fri nite...neway met him at heeren bus stop (he was in the area neway,but decided not to grace the occasion,haha)...we (bui me legend n VN) took bus to airport,bus came as soon as we reached the stop...satellite...shiok sleep...waited for ang to arrive,were wondering if he mixed up the details of his flight..neway ang reached,then yan n qq n jenn...sat around n tokked cock,longtime no experience lidat le...actually is longtime ang never show face le,haha...nvm,his successor is doing a pretty good job so far,will take over his plane nicely...
neway sat in bk n zbl,while fat n jenn did some work...the other 2 supposedly watching some videoclip,but fell asleep,haha...neway fat left to watch planes soon,but no planes took off!!haha...then walked to T2 to take train,slept on the train,went home..then bathed,n left for sch for re field trip...kinda boring,slept on the bus every now and then...after trip went holland v for lunch,Gna's bday...pretty fun,esp tokking abt the psycho major...oh well,anyway went for tuition after that,then came home...stoned a while,then slept...
woke up this morning to thunderstorm..lucky i woke up,ah bo my study table cnfm all wet,cuz i locked my door...sianz...i hate thunderstorms..i hate a lotta things ar...sianz,so now,having lunch,waiting to leave home for sch to do (a leetle bit of) work...sigh...

and today is the first of my '5' day break...how stupid do they think we are?wtf...

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

watched this film on monday...kinda confusing, but nice...i dun do thinking so good,i need to think more...as in,constructive thinking..not brooding...loved wat barn said-so true...well,not nice,but true...
happening tut on tue...1st time encounter such thing...surprised that i was surprised...wonders never cease...

How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.

appealing...

no b.o.d. given.
no,saltong,i dunno y i'm here either.
no idea wat anchors.

sunny.happy.yay.

went for fave tut in the morning...then din go study as planned,cuz genius me forgot to bring readings,so headed home...after that went for a short swim,but it was cloudy,sianz...after that went for film lect,then for choir...enjoyed it,btw.literal n sarcastic.watched about sth i wun do..well,now i think i wun do it..in future,who knows...nvm,back to lect..after lect came out to a thunderstorm..perfect.more light cast upon my sunny disposition...slowly made my way to pgp...neway i really think sth shud be done about it..not my problem to thrash out,but still.oh well,not my problem...
frankly i'm asking for it...midterm tml,i shud sleep soon...take medication b4 i sleep tho',good for sleeping...neway he din look too shabby wen i saw him this afternoon,hope he's feeling better le..

to domee...n jenn...heck,to anyone that matters...

eh,domee,i'm referring to my kind of music as music i listen to...rock,n progressively heavier genres...
neway,on to the main point:wassup with id'ing me as veggie only????i am a lot of other things besides my diet,ok?
i mean,doesn't anyone get the feeling that there's something more beneath the surface just waiting to be discovered??no?No~?? .........no? :'(

neway,on to my beneath-the-surface qualities:
like...i'm also a financial liberalist,Kaicius,procrastinator,slacker,hardcore-expenditurist-without-the-deep-pockets (which leads to me being) dirt broke...
i also display animal magnetism (though it seems this magnetism isn't useful for anything other than to attract doggies n birdies... -.-"), have been said to be super XL,fulla crap,NTsocial,wet-blanket,non-g@y (n i dun mean homophobic here hor..), etc...

please,my friends...open ur eyes to the parts of me that don't see the light (no,i dun mean literally...those parts dun c the light for a good reason)...

sigh,i need to sleep-fulla crap...

Dua and Tiga...

ok,i shall not be picky anymore...will just say something that people dunno

2) i am NOT a picky eater...most of the time...(no yan,i'm not deluding myself,haha...)

3) i really really need my kind of songs....they actually do serve a function...

Satu...

ooh,i thought of something!!

1) i'm a sexist,haha...

tag

oi 0-pt,i very onz one...u tag me,i do..haha...
1) i'm actually very anti-social...no,really
2) i'm actually a pessimist,not that anyone can tell,given my...err...sunny disposition
3) i'm actually... ...

(to 0-pt)
ok,that was pretty crappy...i just can't think of any worthy/interesting fact to list...neway,just wondering:is this like a chain letter thing where if i dun pass it on to 5 other ppl then i will suffer the consequences?bad consequences?how bad ar?huh?huh?huh?

LongTime... ...

long time since last post...neway shiong this week,all tutorials cluster f this week...but i like re tut,got lunch break one...too bad only alternate week..neway midterms coming,damn stressed...1 sem fly by soon...cool...time in U passes as fast as e money poured into e drain thats aNyoUasS...

friday was pretty crappy weather day...promise of rainy day in the morning,then pretty hot in e aftnoon...n then drizzle in the evening...i hate rainy days...

i hate jap song...i have no sense of rhythm..at least,not yet...

neway clement n kx very hardworking,posts all very long n intellectual...i see anything more than 5 paragraphs only i think of my readings liao..oh n btw thanx to clement for ur help..

documentary-r we born or made?if i could look back,i'd b very interested in knowing exactly how it led to this today...no traumas,tragedies,bank account-breaking scams,life-defining moments,etc as far as i can remember...oh well...

tiring free day

was working yesterday with squee n steven,haha..nice,always get to watch shows with him around...n i thought someone ate my lunch again.lalala~boring...
neway went early to sch for hls...after that lunch then did readings at yih..die,damn lagging in readings liao...went for soup-round after that with Gna n Deshun.sianz,by the time i got back to sch no time to eat dinner liao...neway did the routine intro stuff for choir..saw wilsanto there,interesting place where he's having IA,haha...after that went for supper with some of the others..well,they went for supper...sigh,all stressed out..
ooh,off day streak finally broken...back on!oh well,knew off days never last neway,thats y they'r off days...

sianz,still slacking...last night went for tuition,n kid was crying cuz he had lotsa work to do n he din go to school cuz he was sick..hmm...youngest stressed out person i'v ever seen..oh well..
neway saw someone a coupla days back,n he happened to see me,n asked about it..is it not appropriate?hmm..i dunno,but its not my problem,i dun have any problem with it,haha...neway i dun even noe wat he meant by it at the end,haha..oh well,another thing to brood over wen i'm in the mood..
neway i can't get into cors now,the stinkin' idiot system...sigh,maybe i'll ask Gna to help me settle the tut stuff...
still having my off day...how long's it been?3,4 days?amazing..oh well,i suppose it has to happen sooner or later...just have to wait till the next thing to come up,n c how it goes then...

Loser...

sigh...had a pro~ductive morning la..dunno who jio gym n forgot shoes...then went for (really) short swim at buona vista..after that went for lunch at munchie's,saw chilin,joanne,iris n later suli there too,haha...after lunch went to libraryto zap readings...surprised to see there quite a no. of people there studying liao..c'mon la,peeps,get a life!its only the 1st week n u'r alredy burying ur head in the library on a freaking saturday!!actually,that's wat i shud b doing ar..ok,i'm in the library on the 1st sat of sch=loser..other ppl in the library on the 1st sat of sch=hardworking...
sianz..neway did a few readings n went home after that..pro~~~ductive la...sigh,n i dun get it..how come tlect is based so much on a book that isn't available anywhere,will be available only in a few weeks (by then,i'd b prepping for exams le) n has only a few copies in rbr for 100+ ppl to use??just dun geddit...sigh...
neway i dun believe it but i'm still having an off day..maybe cuz i was doing lotsa stuff (not necessarily useful) these 2 days...shall see...
so,before i totally make my off day become the norm (which i doubt is possible),just wanna whine about something that seems more fitting on an on day..doesn't matter how many there are,if it is,it is.if not,doesn't matter if i live on kashyyk...hopefully,anyone reading this doesn't get wat i'm trying to say,cuz i have to read thru a few times to get it (n i wrote this),so if u get it,better go for checkup...

i'm too free...
nah,correction-i'm too slack when i have loads of work to do...

off day.yippee.

end of the week

sianz...coupla bees buzzing around the room right now..irritating...
so.end of the week,n i'v done... ... ...nothing...
procrastination da word again,nothing new there...oh well,actually i just wanted to tok about how the bees have been bugging me the whole nite,so..nothing much i wanna tok about the week,in terms of school..nothing much i have to tok about neway.neway reading list is crazy,i dun even wanna tink about it now..(yup,procrastination,tts wat i'm sayin')

segregation's going pretty well...surprisingly,i had 1 of my off days today...probably wun last,shall see how it goes...

oh well...until the next time i'm bored outta my mind (which shud b in a coupla hours), this is it for now...
i amaze myself with my...constructive use of time...

1st day

back to school...boring day,went for lunch n to library at bp plaza before heading to nus..din even manage to print my outlines,crowded..so went for lect just like that..as expected,many people taking it..saw wilson,amy,and steven(?)among others i recognize..after the lecture wanted to print my stuff again at as7,but dunno y there seems to be an endless flow of readings,notes,etc...everything but wat i printed..so i just upped n left..

neway was at kr terminal waiting for bus..boring again..then i saw this group of people that,from far,i thot were some people i din wan to c me..oh well,doesn't matter,not the people i was expecting...

had yet another dream on monday morning...yo sandman,leave me alone..no more dreams can?
kaoz...

of Charcoal, 1-0 chalet...

met up on fri for dinner..with only yan,bui n wayne...after that wayne left early (whose fault??) then 3 of us went ikea klkk(~legend)...after that went jenn's house to visit charcoal...think all animals think i'm kaicius..nvm,but i warmed up to him soon enuff,esp once i noe about the hoola hoop (mwahahahaha)...haha,but he's so cute...oh well,after that went home le...
hmm..tink i'm probably back to minor,but doesn't matter la,not like i'm any happier being major...shud b happy oso,at least for them,if so...

went for choir performance for rag day on sat morning,extra a while then i went home...well,its choir...neway went back to nus again before heading to css to wait for bui n cv kias...security guard 没有ask me to do sai gang!! but i oso bochup,haha...then legend says he not going le,kns..oh well,we went for the chalet,went with prof ang to c fireworks,enjoy sea breeze,then went back tokked cock n stuff..pretty standard css stuff,haha...oh well,after that waited for yan n qq to grace the occasion with their presence,then soon after they arrived i rtu with andy n prof le...damn stoned...
read some stuff i wrote before...not as much as i thought...
uplifting,very.....

Untitled

went for prac yesterday..darn tired...legs not sour...oh well,it was a prac,nothing much accomplished..i tink its too late,but,oh well,maybe there's a good reason,dunno..not in my hands neway...
watched the wedding singer just now,funny show...i love that song,haha...n steve buscemi's in it oso,i never knew..funny..'just cuz u wanna eat the burger doesn't mean u wanna meet the cow' erm...nvm...
boring boring boring~~i am so damn broke..readings cost so much...(actually reading is free,too bad printing isn't..)
hope dd is fine...healthy oso...
hope it'll last for 0pt...
hope i'll KO as soon as i hit the pillow..
hope sandman doesn't come knocking while i'm at it..
hope is free..

sour...very sour...

went for run just now...well,missed my target again,but nvm,still got time,will be back :P at least this time got to c meng,haha..
neway saw many things...i saw the station,and the cab stand,and the union mart,and that stretch of road,and the interchange...
damn tired...

tired...
tired...
tired...

Great Start.Great End.Great Life.Yay.

did some reading n browsing just now...uplifting (riiight~~)...n yesterday morning,i had another reminder why dreams r bad... n my chances of getting the remaining module i wan is in jeopardy,darn it...neway on to the main stuff...

i'm sorry i din go c u off today..or rather,yesterday..i dun mean to appear callous or unfeeling...i just dun think i need to c wat i know is gonna happen over there,i'm already full of sunshine n brimming with positivity to start with...n it did happen the way i tot it would,from wat i can tell...i suppose this will mark vacation's end...well,nice start,nice end...at least i dun need to be that optimistic to believe u r both better off...neway,'bye...

Sentosa...Sunny Day...

went sentosa yesterday...all late 'cept jac,haha..all bestie's fault la :P neway good sun,heng never rain,ah bo legend confirm yak non-stop (haha)...pretty fun,other than sunburn n sore forearms...neway jac is small-nail-when,haha...everything oso have...oh well...

then got an sms halfway...surprisingly din manage to bleed me..maybe it hasn't sunken in yet,or i havn't been tinking about it much so far...well...real sunny day...damn...

*i had a dream...
it was a nice dream...
it was a dream that i,if i'm optimistic,believe can come true ...
i dun like nice dreams...
i'd very much like to not dream at all...

sigh...

Free on Monday

well,dun have to help out for matric fair anymore...n i din tink i was that blind,how cud i not have seen that coming?i shud noe better..stupidity...neway at least it takes away something that i hav to think about.

sigh...i shud b sleeping...

hmm...if i go ahead with my current planned timetable,i get...2 free days!!hope i can damage control this sem...
hope last sem was my bwangest sem ev-wait..last sem WAS my bwangest sem ever...sigh...

Got Chance Chalet...

went on wed,stayed for 1 nite only cuz had tuition on thu nite n work on fri...nice to c most of them again,haha...played soccer with them (minus weisheng-he had to accompany gf n shiqing,haha)...as usual,full of laughter affair,with the usual antics n crap...then wayne had his shirt appreciated by a doggie,haha...left its mark on his shirt..very wet ar :)
then went back for bbq,i peng hanzi n sweetcorn,haha...then sit n tok cock (or rather listened to them tok cock,for the most part)...sianz...then the girls left,then ww came...surprised a bit by conversation,but oh well...nvm...read a bit then went to sleep,while the others made noise the entire nite playing mahjong...finally everybody concussed around 7+ in the morning...made noise again,haha...neway i joined young elder,weisheng n his gf (sorry dunno how to spell her name) for breakfast,then took train with her back..tokked a bit,then she headed for school...envy...

then i just realised that i'm supposed to go help out at matric fair..sianz gotta fly plane yet again...n i can't decide how i feel about that...
tired...
tired...
tired...

Rainy Morning...

yup,n so i overslept again..so took cab (again) to sch,for the cca card...settled everything,passed things over to bro,n...went home.stupid ass,waste my own time only...neway met wayne at nite for sin city..pretty cool,i guess,i've never read the comics,so i can't really say...neway elijah wood's character was creepy...n josh hartnett was...well,cool,haha...

...personal failures apart,i'd really like to kick that mfsob...

sigh...how much longer u wanna sour?oi.Oi.Oiii~~!!sigh,nvm...

"...Each person must make the decision to leave his past behind or die with it hanging about his neck...there are some who would rather die..." ~the Lioness

B@y Be@ts

went for that with kx yesterday,after one whole day of sleeping,sianz...oink..neway it was pretty cool,but too bad we missed the sunset thing...saw some fireworks for the ndp stuff,beautiful...neway going down again later tonight after work...

legend's free le,more hls! n hope bestie will finally plan a successful sentosa trip.. c?i'm being optimistic! :)

hope 0pt feels better soon...

Start of another week

tired...
tired...
tired...

sometimes i think back,n wonder if it's really as denko said,so long (?) ago...nah,not to me,not chummy...sigh...

Good Friend

dead beat now...should have been sleeping long time ago,but as usual,no self-discipline...sigh...being ok is an entirely tiring affair...

*Being a 'Gd Fren'*
involves showing concern, offering support when i'm down, saying the right words at the right time, and being happy for me when i'm leading a better life.among other things.
sadly speaking,u did non of the above...asshole.

Gathering

hmm...forgot to mention that i saw someone i tink is erna at bugis the other day..ok,thursday...went there to walk around after the performance in the morning...

oh well,bought something..was planning of checking out prices at other places,but in the end cudn't b bothered,just bought it lor...after that went home for more punishing..

friday,went out with clubber,she enjoying the end of her honeymoon week,haha...walked around suntec,then watched FF...ok la,the show...think so far batman has been the most ok comic film...i think la..oh well,sin city's coming out next week :P neway paiseh to clubber,she left for home quite late cuz i was hungry n got something to eat..while she attempted to break 200 sms,haa...neway i went kx's house,nice to see them again after so long...had cake,celebrated wil's bday along with my belated one (thanx,guys)..then watched american wedding..sianz,i cannot watch/listen to shows/songs that r all happy n chirpy n have all-ends-well-at-the-end cuz it just depresses me...ya,more than my metal n hard rock n watever noise pollutants...

sianz,lepew jio'd slipknot concert,but i din wanna go la,so ex...+ i'm not exactly a fan,i think...glad that i din accept the ticket for the present,waste her money only...actually i kinda like my skeleton lego leh..thanx...

sigh,then slept so little (only about 3 hours) then went to work..had quite a number of cockups there,some i totally dun understand...dammit...think i'm being way too lucky...wouldn't last...don't push it...

Wishes Granted...Yay.

there was a person who did not like much...
n he said,
"i don't like what i see,n i hope there're some things i never have to see.."
"i wouldn't like to make myself deaf,but it is therapeutic for me.."
"i never want to displease You again.."
"i want All that i love to be better off.."

SomeOne heard,n said,
"I know not what you not want to see,but I must fulfil your wish because you are My child..so you shall never see anything again."
"I cannot prevent you from going deaf,because you have it coming,but I must fulfil your wish because you are My child..so I,not you, shall make you deaf."
"This is the only way i can do it,but I must fulfil your wish because you are My child..so you shall never displease the One again."
"And All that you love is better off."

n thus all his wishes were granted.

Purchases again...

went for performance yesterday morning...was happy,yet sad...just glad that i had my rage cd with me...bought something from absolute comics,then headed home for more punishing...
gonna meet up with 3880 ppl again later tonight..hope i dun oversleep n b late for work..

sigh,how much longer?2 months le...

Vinegar Woman

hmm...yan returning soon...I.V. back le (?) legend be out in couple of weeks...wayne oso soon-to-be-free...
so.nothing much to do in the meantime...tink i gonna take ippt again next week...sianz,cannot have more expensive seconds...
oh well,bridge will be straight wen i reach it...so many things i wanna do...
hope sentosa n nite cycling trips go as planned...
wanna finish my trilogy before school starts..
wanna finish my games before sch starts...
wanna learn sth before sch starts...
wanna tidy up my room again before sch starts...

about games,been doing lotsa punishing the past few days...n it's been great so far...shotguns,machine guns,sniper rifles,knives,bats,etc... cool~

still about games,i wanna buy ultimate spiderman n x-men legends 2!!!
(yo meng,help me buy leh...)

sianz,i wish i had all the money in the world to buy books and comics...
oh well...

koonzing...

hmm...went jurong spring cc this morning to play bball...sianz,i have no j-shot anymore...sigh..neway met up with han (again) in town,klkk,then met bestie n bui to go clarke quay mrt...legend was the 1st one there...

wow...

neway dare-move...everyone went herbi for me.. T.T moved to tears...havn't seen ang n junling for some time le,so good to c them..oh well,din hav the good fortune to c flo aka meinu...nvm will hav chance one,haha...oh n thanks to yan for the call...

neway went to old place,eat le then went to chinapoint kopi bean to sit n slack...after that went home..damn tired...old le..n i hate going to town on weekends,with the crowd n all...oh well,not impt...

hmm...realized i'm being pretty incoherent,no good structure...nvm..brain dead le..koonz-ing...

hmm...1st of all,happy birthday to alex aka owen-on-drugs....

neway went out with meng n han for dinner just now,went to suntec..went to e noodles place,but i only ate spinach tofu cuz nothing else available for me le :( but e tofu is good la,haha...saw yongheng,sylvia,elena n sylvia's bf?) there oso...nice,haven't seen them for long time le,esp elena...neway went marina square to "klkk"~legend ,n meng had this obscenely sized burger...neway,not impt...

hmm..pathetic is wen u wait in anticipation for something that has no bearing watsoever on anything,at best will probably make u less depressed n u can't reply with watever comes to mind...hmm...did i say pathetic?did that sound pathetic?oh well...matters not...

sianz...havn't had full-strength igualans for long time le..the last time was C.V. concert at that ulu place...

hmm...does using 'hmm' make me sound like i'm doing deep thinking,hence makes me sound cheemer than i am?hmm...matters not...not thinking straight...should shut down for the night...

1 week since i came back from competition trip...feeling a lil tired,tho' i'm not exactly sleep-deprived..appetite has been unusually big,dunno y..c if it lasts...

too much metal is bad...head damaged from all that banging...can't tink straight,or tink too slow,or sth just fundamentally wrong with tinking process..sometimes i shud just shuddup,or at least tink more b4 i speak...wait,tried that before...kinda blew up in my face-fundamental problems in tinking process...shuddup it is then...

split/c me open,fine by me...it's a solution,either way...sianz...

actually,the more i tink about it,the more i feel that i'm favored by the powers-that-be...anger creation issue-solved...pissing issue-solved...n wats impt got better...n i din even have to lift a bleeding finger...it's just that none of them happened the way i thought they would or wanted them to...

i never wanna have to say those 2 letters again...hypocritical bastard...

2 things that he (WildStorm?) said that night (or morning) stick in my mind...1st one,made me feel...relieved that it had not been in vain,shallow as it had been...2nd one,hit the nail right on the head,tho' i dun tink he knows it...then again,if its so bloody obvious that he could get it right w/out knowing it, it had to be a pretty big problem right?yup,at least,according to most people,i guess...

owing to domee's...encouragement n interest (haha..),this is the start..i know its not sunday yet,dom..just tot i'd start first :)
well,it's been an..eventful vacation so far...interesting,to say the least...

neway,i'm not being depressive in my choice of blogname,k?i din come up with this,n i din wanna use a name that's not...lasting..like samidiot.blogspot.com,cuz i may not remain an idiot forever,ya?...well,one can hope,it's free..

hmm...too much to tok about regarding vacation,so end off here...maybe i'll keep u posted about my happy vacation so far...(yeah,i'm talking to u,dom :P)