hmm...pretty much unproductive again.plus read off the screen till my eyes went pop.fine,nearly went.ok,only reason i'm here is to whine 'bout how bloody disappointing the trailer for autumn twilight is.they should've outsourced the animation to the japanese,haiz.o well,at least 08 will be a good year for adaptations.i hope.erm.guess end-of-the-year blues should be passing soon.at least,i hope so.i think.without cv,my life would be so empty(er)-haven't seen 3880,gnap and co for ages.and bestie too,come to think of it.hmm...oh and i should be feeling so bad for not being effortful enuff about gifts,but...i'll heck it for now.contrast is exacerbated when everyone is (supposedly) having fun and being (apparently) happy,eh?misery likes company.1 more countdown and i'm done for the year.can't hardly wait~~

tired n grumpy.

tiring.after concert came all the carolling.erm,then haven't been productive for work at all.neway.went for shopping spree last fri with han and j0li.seems ch0ir is at a crossroad now.dunno la,see how things go.been spending quite a lot (by my standards) on booze (getting to understand u better,0pt).drinking meself broke.in order to...feel just as crappy as i usually do?hmm..oh well,like the g00dfellas,but the drinks are getting boring.dun see much time for drinks anyway.erm...wat else?oh right.been stupider than usual (even by my standards) recently.maybe due to lack of proper sleep.like,really.stupid.like,bought-a-portable-hdd-to-backup-stuff-in-order-to-reformat-lappie-but-ended-up-formatting-portable-hdd-and-in-the-process-losing-every-fucking-thing-i-had-backed-up-and-many-of-the-stuff-are-non-retrievable stupid.and the amount of phasing i do,i should be pryde.or maybe with the amount of remembering i do,i should be prodigy.but he remembers all stuff,i only useless.i suppose i always did have a soft spot for alt.(off the point-but then,alt is relative to the mainstream.)
oops.am thankful for all the gifts received.i suppose i shud feel a lil guilty,but since i dinno wat to get everybody,i just din get everybody sth,ha.thanx song for the dinner (and various lunches,drinks,etc).
time to sleep.actually way past it.oh right before i go-merry fucking x'mas.

f0ff

took off for the day to go shopping.after checking my list,realized that quite jialat ar,din even manage to get half of wat i planned to. oh well, sour legs take priority. then saw clarabe||e later in the evening at the cathay, she gonna be a writer!sounds exciting.yawn.i started the day saying sian and i ended the day exactly.shite.its a season thing.repeat till sounds convincing.i hope boozing for The Party is gonna be on fri,if on sat then i gotta regulate liao :( anyway today session not as bad as previous 2 - legend think sits his credit, but i think its just the sound system,ha..4 more days, and its over.endofyears are usually bad seasons for me.hmm,sounds like this year's an exception, which it's not.neway kinda found out the reason for apparent scandal.doesn't seem like much to me leh.oh well.
after the tok with gnap the other nite,think not very wise ar.reariew mirror more than usual.season isn't helping.neither is the crowd.hmm...
neway good to noe u feeling better.hope it lasts too. :)
wanna devildr1ver till 08.

quiet day

talked to gnap juz now,for a while.everyone's having problems.neway reminded me of when she knew i was down but dinnoe wat to do.well,as long as you dun get kicked in the teeth when you're down,can't really ask for much, can you?reminded me of..bleedings past and present.neway,matters not.still not as busy as i shud be.perhaps i am juz waiting for my prescribed kick up my Rs.kinda tiring oso.get more supplements,ha.neway drank a bit of the stuff that jess passed me-eww,despite kind intentions.or maybe i juz got the prep instructions wrong,ha..
planned to stay late last and to nite, but got kinda sidetracked.and was so upbeat wen yan jio'd drink i nearly ran there.dammit,i tot there was gonna be some booze involved.neway nice to meet up, however short the time is.
neway,despite my incessant whining about work,i guess i'm still pretty lucky in terms of work environment ba.for now,ha.
oops,good luck for car0lling later.who's zai in doing sound check?

MiDec

fuck.this is the worst start to a lousy week lor.played like crap.neway.recap.
perf0rmance last nite, din start too well i tot, but got better. neway its over,so its a relief.now only left car0lling liao.well,on top of watever i'm supposed to finish by end of the year.haiz...after that went k0pitiam (again), then on to t1mbre.band's good.drinks...ok la,but price... ...tsk.i hope it wun become a habit.went for car0lling prac today,got a lift from shuj's dad.went thru e songs with them,at least during the start.after that i juz sorta got...bleeded.neway.went for dinner after that,thought of catching a show before heading over to han's,but heng he updated me kick0ff time.so,headed over for a sian match.i think our combi is jinxed.shud try conference call from different locations next time.blah.off to sleep le.

wasted cab fare again today.saw sinseh, think its hard to be an optimist with him.everytime i'm informed of new problems,hai..neway.apparently we got a lil' publicity.at least,i hope we got a lil'.if its a lot,i dun dare to think about it.sorry if i'm being a wet blanket spoiler,but i just don't think its a good idea.not now neway.need to go shopping.for whatever.but,its such a crowdy time to go out...
silver lining-dark knight looks good,heh.2008 will be a good year.

lucky derek

saw derek today, nice that he still remembers me,despite it being nearly 2 years, and my head weighing a bit lighter than before. working on a project here,leaving on sat le. well,glad for him that move to US turned out pretty well.days are pretty quiet recently,which is a good thing.not that i'm shaking leg though-think i'm gonna lag like crazy for work.think its a pretty fair assessment that i dun really dig research.still,its nice to learn new and interesting things over the course of it.like pepper and chrysanthemum,haha..oh well,off to bed.

hibernate...

shite.i had to think it.from one to another.or one from another.watever.neway.fase passed,to replaced by a... fase.neway.1 week.actually 5+ days la.pray for the best...neway weather these days are not conducive for..living.wanna just curl up in bed and stay there.ya still there.wat passes for my mind, that is.
and read a ST article.commiserate.on a slightly brighter note,i think ankle is actually better.i can almost feel it being ok when i chase after a bus in my mind.still.should go check it out again,wan it over and done with (not too likely though).because.i am thinking of running during cny break.hmm,i am sadded,i actually have to plan in advance for running.yan-stay where u r for s long s u can.i'm sure i can join u for annyouass run.someday.on an even brighter note,discovered a song that i like.for all the wrong reasons.blah.

meet ups..

hmm..met up with hist0ry guys (and gals and shao and darryl) for hitman..was wondering y we watched this, then realized they mostly gamers,ha. well, i guess i might have enjoyed the show better if i had played it before. newayz. shao and paul went back after the show, one to mug and the other to mark. the rest of us except eleen went to b0rders cafe to zbl. talked abit, bitched alot, ate sth, drank sth. man, i miss days spent at asone. nehow, time to disperse. me n j0hn stayed back to hang around a while more, n zo0 oso. after that all went home. yay. pretty glad i went. now where do i get the pics?

neway. met up wif cvks for dinner on sun for yap's bday. was fun and all, everyone was pretty subdued at 1st, prob cuz it took forever for the food to arrive. neway the lychee mart1n1 was good,ha. ate some stuff, drank somemore stuff. i din have too much.but itch came back nehow.darnit.

went back nuslib for a while today.how i miss ann. neway was caught in e rain before,so was squishing around in my soggy clothes and socks.bloody cold.neway had enough of serious stuff, and called to see if prof l0ckhart was around.he was,so i dropped in for a chat. more like whine session, peppered with a bit of trading of info. and somehow everything seems more doable. feel overwhelmed - half the reason is cuz of me, half of it cuz of, well, not me. well, hope something constructive comes outta it. neway saw dr quek there oso. and i still haven't parked my arse at new arts canteen yet. hmm, last x'mas eve i hid in honrm, still remember it rained pretty heavy then. kinda nostalgic for nites spent there ar,ha..oh well, i suppose i need a coupla years to grow outta it.

somehow the prospect of fucking up isn't that much of a fear now.well,wats done is done,see how it goes. neway my lap seems kinda dying. i'd be glad, if not for a) my brokeness and b) the relative youth of it. sianz...seemed pretty serious last night.oh well.

now for the many-times-postponed meetup with gnap.and wif 1880, prob new yr eve or sth.

oh right. and thanx yan for ur thanksgiving msg. how...heartwarming.