"and i want a ponytail"

walked down memory lane, kinda literally though not exactly a lane, coupla weeks back. hardly recognizable which is normal. well. can't say i'm remembering a lotta things, but a few surface every now and then. nvm. neway stanchart this sun, which i'm probably not going for. darn, 2nd year in a row that i've paid only for the racepack. jumping to unrelated and uncomprehended stuff, how come no one else seems to be...concerned?or maybe its just the way its being handled.work is..floody.as in,just the sheer volume of it is drowning me.want this want that.damn.should have found a richer grandkid of ah gong to support me.

of dumb fucks and 3Ds..

been pretty consistent. in being busy. sometimes i just sit n stone. and sianz cuz i'm stoning instead of working. still, today was a pretty good change. a reprieve from...stuff. and seminar was not as boring as it might have been.quite interesting, apart from rather rude people, in my opinion. don't think it's just mine. and the lack of a proper p break :(
so. saw some quotes from zappa about religion. never thought about it in those terms before, but i suppose its true. So, just be a dumb fuck and you'll all go to heaven.
oh.and eve made it to the papers. hmm..the 2 people they tokked to are kinda rather rich. be rich to be cultured. actually, be rich to be watever you want.

neway. saw ga1den2 on a game mag, the 3 D's caught my eyes. bummer its only for 36o. then again, i could always get and go to han's. hmm...

towards a sleepy freeze. i wish.

hmm..feel the lack of energy. or drive. or..something positive. which is worrying. neway, guess it's about time for an evaluation. regardless, gonna be in at least till all commitments are cleared.
neway A7X v0cals sound a lil' like dra1man. pretty nice overall.
bought the book that i had missed a few weeks ago. abit less oomphy than i had expected, like reading a longer version of the mag. which, i think, is the point.
walked around a bit over the weekend. been seeing the x'mas decor around. crowdhell juz round the corner. should start on watever little shopping i plan to do soon.
oh.just remembered.m0zart of spit does a damn good bell sound.kinda dawned upon me wat an insane amount of money i spent on a genre i dun even like much. still, it was good.
some good, part of fase seems to be passing. only a matter of time before rest of it passes too.

seems a cold night. hope it doesn't rain.

midweek.

s1nseh-hopping..and i never seem to get good news when i see them. somehow, the prospect of nights running around annyouass seems very far away now. neway, been told to get an axerae. when i got e time n mood ba. supposed to be patient, adj and noun. well, if i could settle e backlog going under the knife once, i would. silver lining - at least fase seems to be passing. btw - when's domee gonna b back in little red dot?

about nothing at all..

so..stardust down. pretty funny. i should really start reading ga1man, gotta get past the artwork. neway. saturday was long. woke up kinda late, went for prac, went to recce sam, missed the book i wanted buy (dammit! enough of this! next time should just buy sth wen i see it, no more considering!!), sat around a coupla hours being less-than-productive. watched a cheesy movie. (tsk, dunno if its the history of the franchise pulling him down, i kinda liked the earlier 2 films by r0b z0mbie - at least it was more...bloody. ok, now wait for be0wulf. and 30 days. and more.) neway, slept till full today, ha.. woke up, washed up, rushed down to westmall for meetup. aand...walked around for the next 1.5h. neway. meetup over, returned home for dinner, slacked me arse off, and it's bedtime (n i'm past it, again).

on to happier things. saw some preview pics of j0e mad's work for ult1mates iii, wet...tsk, but the 1st trade will prob be out only around...next aug or sep, and that's assuming they're time-conscious. haiz, that sucks. and hawkeye is a lil' like grifter now leh...dunno. neway was asked a question sometime back that i hadn't really thought about - which is my fave on the x-team? kinda hard leh..i noe wat legend would say. i guess i dun have a fave, not from 616 neway. think 30 days soundtrack would be worth checking out (then again, i've only heard music from the trailer so far). well, if it's anything like underw0rld or re, it shouldn't be too bad.

song of the week - welcome home (sanitarium) by metallica. speaking of sanitariums, i think all watever-supremacists should have their kids shipped off to smith's grove sanitarium. in they go as puny losers, out they come as unkillable badasses. of course, having tyler 'sabretooth' mane as mike helps. just a thought.neway, off to sleep~

mourndae bleus

sleep-deprived. maybe that was a turning point a decade ago. or maybe it was the food. neway. x'mas is coming. n i'm really glad i came across mcfar|ane's tw1sted x'mas, cuz i relate better to that. happy hols, happy people! nah, still some time before it's actually here, no need to think about all the dec things first. except, gwdmmt, there's only 40+ days left? whiskeytangofoxtrot man...
some reactions:
i haven't had a rollercoaster ride in ages, but i'm drained too :)
i can't be pictured sad? thought i'm already there liao. guess frowns n (apparent-)hostility dun cut it huh..i shud work on it.
i look *coff* (can't bring myself to type the word) ?!?!?! auntie's definition is very liberal..or she's very kind..
i am experiencing something like..blast from the past? can't say i welcome it though. THOU SHALT PASS QUICKLY!! (if only i can say this in super booming bass-y voice of that guy)

ho, devildr1ver is my new mudvayne..

r0ckapel la

huh, woke, swam, recce'd house of pain, ate, walked around, ate again, and settled down for the show..pretty good, though i dunno half the songs. still, pretty entertaining and interesting. and happy, for the most part. saw lindley + +sweet there. neway.after.walked around, found a place to sit, drank, it rained, waited ages for cabby. and..that's the end of the day.

neway KX we juz meet up to watch 30 days la, see if any of the other guys are free.

i wish it had rained like this last night.

D.press.Der. sleep it off.

had an interesting 2 day course at the start of the week.then went for a seminar,which i understood kinda nuts about.then had a headache day, and then went for event for which i was twice-deflected-arrowed,which turned out better (and more interesting) than i imagined (and i have quite an imagination). ok, so i dun really like wine. neway a lousy next day, then a sian evening.
and then..a missed-prac day, for which i feel kinda guilty about. probably should've done sekshenals.oh well, it's done. watched pleasure factory, din really understand the ending.cognitive functions cease over the weekends.and watched liverpo0l draw.which made for a non-great night.
depresseder than usual.i hope its e booze, depressants n all.nah..it's just that i am thinking again.and since i don't earn any nobel prizes for the sort of thinking i do, its not a good thing. dammit, i'm already thinking about the next crossroad, barely 2 months into the 1st fork in the road.not that i'm there yet. wondering about the should/can/will i's. some questions don't have ready answers. not ones that i like neway. the what questions, especially. sometimes i wish i'd taken k0kb0on's path. i'd fit the stereotype. then again, it might be an ir0n maiden for me. drifting's a bitch. oh well..think i finally id'd something about meself, which doesn't bode well for me. like, how obvious?? neway, not at all useful. or uplifting. at all. should i be taken with something i don't actually remember the much of? juz a fase, waiting for it to pass. or maybe i'm juz nutsy from lack of release. it's been a year since i last had a (real) run.

so. looking forward to..

stardust
30 days 0f night
ir0n man
the dark kn1ght
wanted (reservations about this 1, i hope its good)
cl0verfield
hulk
hellb0y
pun1sher

all i can think of for now. sian. kinda missing avnl's "becauwz". becauwz...it reminds me of his energy and enthusiasm, both of which i need loads of. sleep it off. sleep it off.