i is happy...

i is happy...

i feel very happy wenever i hear dr l0ckhart talk about year 4,haha...like not as erxin-ly difficult as i feel/hear/fear it may be,still manageable.. met yx,zh1bear n huit1ng for lunch after zapping expensive (n heavy) readings,never seen her before leh..(she really same batch as me ma?haha..) neway saw many people whom i din recognize at the meeting today,haha..n that's only half the cohort,shiok liao lor...like back to being freshie,go everywhere "oh hi,how ya do?my name's sam,n u r?" oh well,neway pr0f farre|| challenged football,too bad (or too good) i dun play,haha..ah bo confirm bwang..neway no distractions,now need to concentrate on 19th,n getting better..
speaking of which,the powers-that-be-up-there,forgive me for i have sinned...well,it was pretty good sinning nehow,haha..erm,guess i'll have to see doc again tml,ha..oh,watched dragontigerdoor just now,erm,din really disappoint me la,cuz i din really expect much from it,haha...fight scenes were not bad though..

eek,the bidding for r1se of m0dern japan is disgustingly high..then again,my pr0gramme acc0unt is disgustingly low on points,tsk..sianz,guess i'm stuck w1th ch1na module le...(i weep for meself wen i think of the probable reading load)

neway saw someone else (i'm ashamed to say that i totally dunno his name) from school on my way home,he lives same place as meng! but he going on exchange,leaving next week..n he is 1 year younger than me,which i dinnoe..haha..oh well,shiok life,exchange is..

speaking of which,kx is going on exchange soon,to p1ttsburgh! n heonna be a concert goer like domee liao,ha..but i not a big dashb0ard c0nfessional fan,so i only that little bit jealous,hahaa...bon voyage to kx,sorry i cudn't make it last sat!

then again,at the end of the day,i is happy :)

of cabby, cancelled plans, and happy talks..

cabby...
well,woke up to gnap's sms this morning,then called the dept n had to bia cab to school..n i realised that i needn't have done so :(
neway the cabby was interesting, encouraging me to 'think gigh, set (my) goals, think big, dare to bia..' n he considers 4k monthly salary for a grad to be failure,fyi..haha,my eyes grew bigger n rounder wen he said that..

cancelled plans...
neway helped a little bit with the flyers at cfa after leaving the dept, cuz sent0sa plans cancelled,sianz...helped vi,j0seph n j0anne a while b4 i headed to clementi to meet wayne for nua gym session..after that went home to change,then went jp to meet best1e,fl0,shuhu1 n jac..after nua a while liao then left with jac to take mrt to town...met witchy just before showtime,then watched the lake house...

The Lake House

adapted from the k-flick Il Mare, i recommend it only for keanu n sandra fans...maybe architecture fans as well...cuz other than these 3 factors, i think the k0rean version is better in every aspect lor..might as well just rent a vid of il mare..i'd watch the korean version twice,in cinema,over the holloywood remake...sianz,hollywo0d version of inferna| affa1rs coming out soon,hope it's not as bad..

happy talks...
so,after the show went to nua at starbux..talked about some stuff,mostly about running though,haa...well,on the way home,talked to her and received rather practical advice...now,i just need to settle my local issues..oh well..shall see how it goes...

..

i finally took it down for the first time in 14 months,with the intention and belief that i dun need anymore... not that i noe i'm right...but,i suppose i'm trading something old for something new..what i used to say before,all have problems,just different types..

"..cuz nothing lasts forever, even cold november rain.." ~Guns N' Roses

Murderba||

went swimming with waynex in the morning, then went je lib cafe to waork on the script stuff with sok..happy to report that we were marginally more productiev compared to the first time we met up..then again,we still have many things to do,sigh...neway went to mar1na ktvwee with legend, chaiyen, 1r1s, joanne, xiugu1 and mr goh,who was late,haha...neway left early to go meet nana for murderbal| at the cathay cineplex juz now, enjoyed it...if i had to choose, i'd trade both supe returns n xmenIII for this show...depressingly uplifting..still,liked it a lot...

wish-gas n stress released abit...

ok,i dun need to whine to witchy liao,i've poured out my grievances le,haha..erm,ok,not that serious la..but i'd still hope to talk to her about some stuff.. n even if i dun have anything to talk to her about specifically,it's always nice to just talk to her,so old frens le...

hmm...hmm hmm hmm...

ok,less whining...

congrats to pau| h0 for marriage soon (or is it over alredy?nvm,he not reading this,haha..)

few days back,realised i made a mistake that i never thought i would make..not that i dun make mistakes,i just din think i was capable of making this particular one...well,not that its a global killer mistake or wat la,doesn't affect anything,actually..still...made me think about some things..
today had lunch at e deck..saw a stimulus that triggered a reaction that was...i dunno..n that made me think about things in opposite direction from some things...

then can't do running therapy this week,i'm down with cough n can't afford to worsen it,sigh...now i only left with self-deafening therapy...i really shud tok to witchy...

meeting...

sigh,this week is meet-up week...meeting up with sok later to work further on the MC script (must be more productive!!), meeting l0ckhart,yx,zx,gnap (i hope) on thu for lunch, meeting bestie n frens on fri,and then witchy in the evening..meeting 3880 peeps on sat...not really helpful to wallet..i need to harden my heart (ok,un-procrastinate) to make some decisions...sigh..maybe i can talk to witchy on fri,i need someone to bitch (ok,whine) to,haha...hope we get the time to sit down n talk,longtime no see her le,hope we havn't grown apart...
sianz,gonna miss the ns gathering that i was looking fwd to..

what a difference a day makes...

sianz,i'm getting bad vibes about year 4...only got 1 outta mandatory 4 modules i need so far,i guess i'm destined for a module i see as uninteresting,can only pray that i'm proven wrong...sianz,kinda disappointed that i din get avene||'s module..oh well,am feeling the consequences of modprefex screwup now..sianz...then tokking to gnap juz now din help much..think i face same problem as yan - need to fight so hard just to stay afloat..kns,got people alredy doing readings n shit liao lor,n i'v done squat..this is depressing...

retail therapy

wasting of money shud be done the old-fashioned way - going to buy stuff from the shops personally,haha..online retail not therapeutic at all...

neway i shiok,bought a mambo slingbag (though not black, the cover redeems all), and 2 action figures (the disciple and corpse bride)..the latter items were by chance, cuz han n i chanced upon the toy sale,yay!!

weekend...

oops,thanx to eve for the rather fallic bday gift,haha...well...that's y i dun like talking about stuff-the actual manifestation of thoughts into the material existence kinda has an influence on the drection thoughts go..hmm...

went jalan for bag today,sianz,all quite ex..though i've decided on wat i want le,but its not black :( nvm,redeeming factor is there...neway while walking around,came aX this shirt in ga||ery,super nice!!n comes with a super price tag!!sianz,imports...realised that there r many nice black shirts around,i shud get out more,haa...erm,wen i un-broke my bank account ba...

i shud go off,shud have gone off...but...tsk...
swordsmen we are,u n i...

the hourglass runs low..

i wanna learn many things that seem pretty useless :( n expensive somemore... opportunity cost.. sianz,suppose i dun have to think about those things now,since i have other priorities.like repay bank in a year, surviving the next year, finding a job, etc.. how exciting..

today's prac,hmm...dunno good or not,i really can't tell.but had good attendance la,haa..think its the best since a longtime ago, with zjie coming back from tek0ng,haha..neway had photoshoot,went for dinner at suntec horse-shay,then i go home,wanted to rest to play bball tml,but papaya fly plane :(
neway was talking to b0ss on the way home,he set a lot of targets for me in 2 months hor..nvm,only 1 is an actual viable and do-able thing now...pray pray...
sianz...i kinda have a rather new perspective on n1ke's slogan..thinking too much is not good..allows excuses,selfishness,etc to creep in,compromising ur desire or ability to do the right thing..hmm,reminds me of the sp1ke lee film that as shown for f1lm n h1st0ry...right is subjective,no? sianz..i wish i could maintain it,but sometimes the mind is willing but the body (or in my case,the wallet) is really weak..they lucky i'm a lazy bastard,havn't cancel yet...though i wish i could continue...sianz...

neway going town check out bags with 2/3some,yay! n welcome keng back from eur0pe...n wish speedy recovery to qq..

i think, therefore i am...

hmm,was talking to 0pt awhile ago...i think i depress her,haha..at the very least i know i'm not cheering her up..neway was with sok n ian at je lib cafe the whole afternoon,working on the script, and watever else needs to be worked on..hmm,got some things done,but not enuff to ease our panic attacks,i think,haha..hmm,anyway sianz,think gotta squeeze brains for creative juices to flow a bit,foresee a lot of creative writing coming up :( neway received another something,terima kasih,that's rather practical n useful..erm,hope i can put it to good use...
seriously, i have no inclination towards thinking at all these days..all i wanna think about now (n its a handful alredy) is surviving my final year, working towards 19 aug, not getting injured, and finishing the 2 runs well.sigh...
LFC home kit unveiled next Mon..hope it'll be good...

eh?

hmm,just hit me..

Qjie said that i have tummy, n that i'm dense..

:'(

hmm...

went blading at ecp on wed with qjie,shuj n nana...fella coupla times,bleah,but fun,haha...ecp is so cool (literally)..tsk,if i have car i go there everyday to run..oops,forgot about the problem of license,ha..neway took bus home,slept all the way..nite went running,think i getting weaker..shud go for 1ppt again soon,haha..

met wayneX at queensway earlier today..saw j1ngy1 (not 3880) at the bus stop outside je lib,she working le..neway wayneX blamed his purchase on me (again),haha...sianz,then cudn't joined papaya n gang for bball at nite...

sianz,tokking to gnap just now,getting panicked about the new sem,sianz...depressing thinking about modules...hope n pray..

went fush's for combined just now,received some more info on how to improve..not sure how much of it i can pt to use though..neway received a question just now..not unexpected (despite my density,i'm not a complete moron) but,well,haha...something i'd rather not think about right about now..hmm...

.

sianz,s+andard char+ered never send me the marathon thing,kns..think only i dun hav :( neway alredy signed up for ah'am liao,hope i dun get injured or anything..neway i think i really die eat-energy for next sem..hmm,dun think..like wat exoc used to say,it wun rain if u dun prepare wet weather programs :)

watched pirates today,long show..lucky i was prepped,haa...n i usually dun like the 2nd part of trilogies,leaves me hanging :( sianz,drag0nlance got new trilogy of the C0mpani0ns liao,i no chance to read yet,sianz..the time will come...hmm,still hanging on to hope that someday someone will make a trilogy of the DL Chr0nicles..neway still trying to push thru 0rientalism now (i got it frm woodlands regional lib btw,yongxi..)

tired but dun feel like sleeping

hmm...woke in the afternoon,online a while,lunched,then went annyouass to run,then met kx for baybeats..hmm,considered buying album,but in the end did not,haha...save money is good,no?
neway saw jas0n-chaotehteh at harry's,he working in a bank now..so good,sianz...hope market still good by the time i graduate,haha..

neway think i shud run annyouass more,the slopes were killing me lor...hmm,ecp is good for the breeze,annyouass for the slopes...more hls before school starts!

weekend...

went to ahkan's place last nite,sat around a while..wx,leohuo,pui,choy,,neo,rock n ccchar|es there,with my kx n mrho..sianz...the biggest ns gatherings,excluding 3880, r usually of this nature (that's twice now)..neway made a faux pas statement there,bleah...wrong context..neway hope leohuo's plans comes to fruition..

so,slept till afternoon today...planning to go esp|anade later in the evening for bb,was thinking of squeezing in some run time before that,in which case,i'll have to get my bum off the chair right about now...erm,nvm..
neway i dun like pool's new euro away kit :( hope the home kit will be good..

stop being lazy!!!

tagged

favourites
favourite colour: black (though yan would say its not a color)
favourite food: if its junk,something minty.if not junk food,none.
favourite song: no one fave
favourite movie: see previous post..oh 1 fave?see above.
favourite sport: running
favourite day of the week: none
favourite season: none
favourite ice-cream: something minty

currents
current mood: i'm almost always pissed. ok,that includes now,happy?
current taste: sorry, not in the habit of licking myself
current clothes: t-shirt and shorts
current deskstop: marvel's civil war. whose side are you on?
current time: 0156h
current surroundings: untidy room
current annoyances: don't bloody remind me, i dun wanna make it a coherent thought.
current thoughts: Of someone.

firsts
first best friend: erm...can't really say..2 first best frens can? meng n han
first crush: Crush, not loves or likes rite? A girl called ****** (i.e. i dun wanna type out 'loud').
first movie: wud YOU remember?
first lie: i'm so saintly that i NEVER lie.
first music: the sweet lullaby of my own voice. and my mum asking me to quit screeching..no really,wud YOU remember?

lasts
last cigarette: Never had one.
last alcoholic drink: don't remember.
last car ride: wednesday, hitched a ride home from the east.
last crush: Crush, not loves or likes rite? A girl called ******** (i.e. i dun wanna type out 'loud')
last movie: Superman Returns.
last phone call: dun remember, seldom make calls.
last cd played: my cdrw of songs. n no,it has no title.

have you ever
have you ever dated your best friend: erm,yes,in the unhappening sense of the word.
have you ever broken the law: i am so saintly that i NEVER break the law.
have you ever been arrested: nope
have you ever skinny-dipped: nope
have you ever been on tv: erm,climbing up on the tv set counts?
have you ever kissed someone you don't know: nope

5 things you are wearing: specs, t-shirt, shorts and underwear la. wait,thats 4..ok,n a smile,just for this one line.
4 things you did today: ate, pissed, drank, typed
3 things you can hear right now: fan, metallica's "nothing else matters", my sis on the phone.
1 thing you do when you are bored: i am so happening that i'm NEVER bored.
.....
ok, i play game.

movies

no,dunno y i feel like typing about them,i just do..so,just 3 of my fave movies:

Memento
Se7en
Sleepers

hmm, watched se7en n sleepers a long time ago,back wen brad p1tt n gwyneth pa|tr0w were still together (i think) {does anyone still remember that??ok,i'm old}...watched memento for a module in annyouass,though i think i bwang that module,at least there're intangible benefits(repeat many times to deal with bwangness)..neway they have most of wat i wud think make a movie good,for myself at least - dark story, human nature(the not good one), no happy endings...oh well....

"Do I lie to myself to be happy? In your case, Teddy...yes, I will" ~Lenny, Memento

...

seen 2 peeps who look like 2 other peeps today..well,seen many faces long unseen today..hmm..i think i'll die of stress if many people go..a handful wud be enuff to content me,methinks..hmm,i think progress is no good,personally at least..so not looking forward to experiencing similar experiences like last concert.
stressed..hope not that many of them actually do go,ah bo i think i die,though that seems contradictory to the interests of the group..oh well,included disclaimer le,despite it being very un-marketing..i dun like people to do stuff that they won't be interested in doing if they din noe someone doing it,do things for the right reasons..perhaps this is why i'll starve to death if i ever have to do sales..never bothered that family never went for any performance..hmm,actually i think i'd feel more at ease if that remained the same..

crap.

bo liao... ...

sian,i screwed up my m0dule preference exerc1se..hope i dun get any modules that r extremely tough(ok,tougher than the average 40o0 module)/i hate...hop i dun get farre||'s class :( and i really hope i can get dr l0ckhart's module in sem2...

neway,did a very nua hls just now,kns..world cup over,no more excuses!!!

going for best1e's commencement later,after that dunno do wat,was tinking of hls before that but doubt i can wake up early enuff..think i'll just go cb|c before that,c how ba..

the glorious wind...

the glorious wind,damn shiok..the sourness in the legs..it will be a good sleep later,i'm sure,yay..

neway had dinner with bestie,flo,crispgreen n legend on fri,thanx to all...ate at han's,then headed to cafe carte| for cakes..after that talk somemore then go home...erm,took bus home with crispgreen,too bad for her i'm real great with making conversation,so most of the journey was spent in silence..neway not that i'm complaining,but i dun really remember knowing her well,ha..i think i spoke to her only that time i saw her at bo0n |ay interchange,(only) a bit surprised she went...and then,reminded once again that it's good to not expect..oh,tokking about totally different stuff now..damn sianz,if something is gonna happen,it's gotta have happened by now,no?sianz...

coupla days..

went to eve's for prac on tue...actually more like doing recording,wa,that's the most efficient reality check ever,sok din even have to send that email liao,had we heard ourselves sooner..neway after that sat down to eat..erm,sandwiches,eggless cake,n ice cream..ice cream was goooood~~~~yay!but 1 ball jitao eat is very uncomfortable..neway sorry nana for blowing out the candle 1st,i really tot u already blew it out the 1st time! (hmm,do apologies to people work when i'm not sure they read this?hah)...neway sorry to people present for the white spray :(

neway after that headed to han's for 1st semifinal,jitualiap vs germans!! haha,del piero is the best,i like the ita|ian old guard better,haha...neway thru to finals,facing france [deserving finalists,regardless of watever rona|do n carvalh0 say (they'r bloody deluded,btw...they'd make great blues-divers n sore losers)],pui...

today met up wif yx n d0cl0ckhart for lunch,his treat!! neway i LPH'd again today,during lunch somemore,kns..damn troublesome...better not cause me any more trouble..after that went town for him to check out his tat stuff,i doubt i'll get 1 soon,if at all-i'm dirt broke now :(

speaking of which,i made an impulse buy yesterday,n impulsively-bought product shud reach me in a week...that's it,i'm gone...not that i regret it or something,+ shopping therapy is really fun n effective...to a certain extent neway..hope i can look at it then and smile.

a day...

went to cine ktv wif cv(fush,song,nana,qjie,yt,ian,eve n shuj) yesterday,entertaining...well,at least entertaining for some of us,haha...neway received card from shuj,terima kasih...after that went lido for red-underwear-gazing...am now considering whether to catch the omnimax version..took bus home after that,n that's the end of another day..lala,one step closer to books again...sianz...

turn the pages turn the stones

sianz,looking thru modules avail for next sem,so sianzzz....all look difficult and/or boring..in short,intimidating...wondering if i'd have been better off graduating...kns,hope i dun end up in a worse state in a year's time..sucky...

sgp no snow..wish how hard oso no use...

woke up in the morning..still felt tired...neway went out to meet han n meng for lunch,then jalan'd a bit...legs sour,sianz...bag heavy oso..i think i'm good at bringing lotsa stuff out to burden myself..neway got a pair of shorts,thanx 2/3some...after that went eunos to meet runmates..hitched a ride to ecp to run...if i had a car n i drove,i'd go there to run like every week la,so shiok...good wind blowing...after that went for dinner,then had a small cake at han's (no,the eatery,not han's house)...after that nua'd home... sianz..now waiting to sleep...

neway happy birthday wanq1 (ang's cousin,haha)

why ask why?can't do nuts even if u have all the answers...

went to han's for germany-argent1na match...heartbreak :( blame it all on the coach,dammit...after that that watched ita|y match thru semi-consciousness...woke in the morning to bia for prac..tired...

terima kasih to song for gift...n terima kasih to best1e...perhaps there r more forthcoming...then again,maybe not...

after choir,had meeting n stuff...hope all goes well for concert..after that went for the yongi thing,n then went to blujaz nua..nice milkshake! :)

after nua session (which helped me gain valuable insight into the significance of sports meets in sec sch),went home...had supper,bathed n saw england crash out..blame who?those 2 chums from manure,who else...oh well,at least stev1eG,carra n crouch can rest now...

i feel a fire in my belly...no,not fired up for/by anything,just the world cup schedule wreaking havoc on my body..