the past week...

the past week..hmm..lemme see...when did i not go lawlib to study?can't think of one day,before today...go lawlib is good-not crowded,long table,toilet near..go lawlib not good-uh uh guy(hereafter referred to as UUG) irritating the crap outta me..i suppose it's all too possible that UUG was suffering from some throat irritation,then need to clear throat very frequently or sth..it's still damn irritating...esp in the morning,UUG would go "uh uh" at high frequency and intensity..uh with a vengeance!! ok,i'm mean..but i'm irritated..and irritated me = meanie me.. no, not mini-me..sianzzz...

then went src one of the days,kns,trapped in elevator..if lift spoilt should just put "you WILL be trapped in the lift",instead of "should"..neway got out soon enuff,with the help of yan's (very long) fingers (pressing for the lift from the outside)..wat world is this,when i can't be lazy without getting trapped in lift??

2 down...

in a day..after tomorrow's paper,i'll just have 1 more mod to seriously study for..good: the worst will be over soon. bad: there is a lot of worrying..perhaps i may not get to prolong my student life after all..see how,sianz..neway on to better things :)
after sat's paper i plan to reacquaint myself with ps2,haha..been far too long since i chopped sliced and mutilated something..sianz,think this sem will be quite disappointing,esp comparing with last sem..well,last sem received an unexpected boost,hope this sem will as well,sigh...then after sat's paper can start to tidy up room liao,disgustingly messy now..neway jack got the teaching award le,he gonna be rich next sem!!
can't wait for CL final..can't wait for world cup,tho i think i'll only watch a few here n there..hope i can get to work more in hols...hope i can get to continue tuition in hols steadily...hope i can get better-than-expected results (c'mon,my expectations are as low as they get liao,how hard can that be?)... hope i will do something constructive in hols and not waste it away...

i am full of hope in life...

rainy sunday..10 days...

dragged my sorry s to sch,saw szeavoid at kr terminal..hmm,if she din say hi back,i would be wondering if i mistook someone else for her,she looked differenter..nvm..neway did some work in lib,then headed to yih to carry on..did that bit of not-very-productive work till evening,when it rained heavily again..pissing me off..will my vacation be spent indoors listening to the rain lashing outside?depressing...as if being in the state of brokeness isn't enough..

went beat bun dinner,went 711 to buy some stuff,n saw pluck-zero there..longtime no c le,she said she's working in ntu as technician..everybody working le..i must extend my days of non-work...i dun wan additional responsibilities so soon..sianz...

1st paper in 10 days...screwed...

i shall devote myself to the worship of the Cult of Curves right after exams...hope the curve saves me,haha...somehow after the talk by g0rd0n,i'm more apprehensive about 4th year liao..then again,not like i have a choice,i am not ready to graduate...

sianz...

24...and jenn...

amazingly untired,despite 1 whole day up..hmm...yesterday ah kua used the universal truth example 1st used by timB to as an analogy for class..hmm,dun think i ever told myself how much i hated that. i.hate.that.example.

neway to jenn,if and when u read this before i contact you..

paiseh,din reply-was bathing when u msg'd n nudged me..ok,nudged my chat window..erm,i think set it at 3rd may 1st ba,though i havn't checked with the others* yet,we accomodate your schedule,haha...yan said he ok,u said u ok,so most important and busiest people ok liao...i ask them and then update on igualans.blablabla accordingly lor..


the others* - any igualan who is not sam, yan or jenn. (bui not even considered,hahaha)

sunshine and shadow

tired...been awake for a long time...feel like sleeping but there's tuition later.maybe soon after..maybe not..was a gloomy morning,drizzling and dark clouds...n then i saw sunshine,and shadow at the same time...not good,i have a bad feeling about assignment,but i think it could have been worse..oh well..after that printed notes,sunshine-shadow continuing...
stressball again..somehow it always seems to hit me during ah heng/kua's lect..maybe the LT's too cold..

i want to put s|ipkn0t,spinesh@nk,mud\/ayne,mari|yn mans0n,in f|ames,chi|dren 0f b0d0m,and crad|e of fi|th on and go full blast..if i were to choose between ech0 and DD,i'd go with the former..of course,t'would be better if i could choose azrae|,as long as it was quick..oh well,at least i dun rx certain messages,assuming it's not too much a bother..that would have been virtual slow and painful and non-conclusive azrae|...

obviously,i need to sleep.

sianz...

i hate propose your own topic essays..drained...hope it will have a decent pass,at least..and hope i will get a decent pass for tut participation..now i think my midterm grades not enough for damage control,though bestie scolded me for spoiling mrket,haha...please please please be kind,clanC..

neway general trend of assignments this sem - 1st assignment of a module usually pretty good,then 2nd assignment would have gone downhill,sianz...excluding soci of food,cuz it only has 1 assignment..most regretted module ever...hope i dun bwang this sem..wait,i know i can see the brighter side of things..wait...I KNOW! at least i can say that my 2nd assignments were able to go downhill (implying that i started off the 1st assignments from a higher point, which then made it possible to go downhill)..hmm...i wonder if there's any use for this kind of..optimism,other than for self-deception..

sianz,i miss the days when i was content with certain grades..now,focus is on damage-control,need a lot better..

went for the talk for hon yesterday,kinda having 2nd thoughts about how suited (or not) i am to do 4th year..i need to develop powers of speech, i need to develop better working habits and i need to develop my brain more..i already need not consider thesis le,ism also no need to think liao la...just need to think about the basic requirements-regular reading, talking and thinking..somehow, despite how simple it sounds, it's a daunting prospect..nevermind,i'm just thinking for fun..not like i'm ready to graduate this year.. i.do.not.want.to.work.yet.


oh well,going to school liao...yay.

weekend...i'm at my wit's end...

hmm...yesterday,a bat was in my room...not moving..i tot was dead,tinking of how to clear it up..laobu touched it with newspaper n it fluttered around...suddenly,bruce wayne din seem tt nutcase anymore..neway after getting it outta the house,had to deal with shitty issues-like bat shit..kns,come into my room n crapped..only a little only,not so bad..hope bat is ok..hmm,dunno...

neway went to donate something at sgh again this morning..spent a total of 4 hours there,1 was spent trying to get my blood flowing..sianz,both forearms sore,2 holes each-3 failed holes before my blood finally felt like flowing properly..oh well,my fault,i suppose...neway did 2 things that i havn't done ince i was a kid in the wardroom..damn..oh well,no big deal...
took yet another step back in operation reverse-dirt-brokeness,was a kaicius again..longterm somemore.sigh...good cause,good cause, goodcause,goodcausegoodcausegoodcause...

did a little work today..not enough..more needed..time is running out..wat to do?? hate late deadlines...

unproductivity...

sianz,with my productivity (or lack of it) if i were a layer, i'd be a mcnugget by now..neway slept till 1+ today,slack..lunched,then went for final tut (wtf,last tut le..exams just around the corner)..planned to stay back in sch to study abit then go hls at nite,but...weather looked ominous..din wanna get stuck in sch with heavy rain (which looked all too probable) so headed back home for dinner...so.one day.done nothing.well,at least i did better than expected for midterm..still,all signs point to a downward slide in assignment grades..already true for vietnam le..oh well,keep complacency away,for as long as possible...

then just realized i din do sth for my genbio assignment,which may or may not cause me to lose unnecessary marks..kns..maybe they included that in the instructions,or maybe not..dun care,i just wanna pass..hopefully can meet up on 3rd may,with decent attendance..ah bo its the same people showing up,and the same people mia..not that the people who show up are not good,just that it'd be good to see the others once in a while,y'know...sianz..oh well..

was thinking of not watching the CL matches this week n just get some rest for studies and stuff,but...doubt i'd miss them,haha...2nd leg after all..

sianz...

NVd planned mobility

sianz..rainy day=sianz+not good day...it should just rain over the reservoirs, not anywhere else..
some posts are better left uncommented..
toast to friendship,past and present..
counting down,to 1?

dammit,raining again..sianz...and sb playing malay songs pretty loudly,for this hour...wait kena complain,haha..

little stressball today...