i remember

wat i wanted to post the last time but did not..so was watching natgeog channel at meng's,wen everyone was asleep,so kinda watching this program in between dozing off-dark side of something la..i only watched about hippos and chimps..will never see these 2 animals in the same light again..neway regarding the latter,maybe it'd make me less critical of ourselves?dunno,probably not,but still..depressing that a species other than us is capable of some things once thought an exclusively human...neway..

so..conducted interview with solitary interviewee,and kinda surprised at some of SaidInterviewee's mentality towards issue of interview...not that i expect SI to have same,or even similar,ideas as i do..oh well,diversity in life,haa..neway SI has good frens...

sianz..owe many people birthday gifts..think this shall be theme le,owe at least 4 months then give present,haha...bui's will be even longer..neway resumed HLS today!shall keep up the good work.erm..after i finish my 2 essays,haha...oso stayed in sch till sky black! though not very productive,but better than nothing!yay!no more slacking! (keep repeating to self till self is convinced)

i miss sotn,i wan to play it again..hope i can find :(

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so.3 more essays and i'm headed for exams...hope hope this sem wun regress.if at all possible,improvements wud be good.even a little..

neway been sick the past month (no,not that i'm bedridden all this time,just on n off sicknesses)..longtime no hls le,went running on friday nite..weak!!! must run,must run more...ok,now workload's kinda lightening,sicknesses kinda going away..must resume....
neway i like this doc,cuz that time i LS till legs nua,he told me since i have no appetite,just eat anything i wan as long as it's not milk,fried or greasy foods.for e.g. rice la,soft drink la..good doc,i say..

neway think i've been too nua these past few years..and i've been regressing..i shud take the next step le,been kept in view since long time ago neway..hmm..shall see how it goes..

can't think of other things i could've wanted to post,going to sleep le...

sianz..not making much headway on essays..need to do work!! neway was checking out some forums,amazing fan art by some of the people...longing for symphony of the nite again~~ sigh,the best ever... sianz..gonna be a long long vacation (i hope)...hopefully will get around to doing something,anything and not just complete my games...speaking of games,sigh...will symphony run on ps2??so tempted to geddit...

btw,i hate japanese songs that are beneath my range..hullo,i dun get to nap before i sing ok?compose friendlier songs leh..sakura,that's good...still comfortably within my range,haha...

neway hope i get something done later..

nein

so...

VV's over,a relief...though i planned to leave choir after this year,i seem to have some reservations about it..dunno,c how it goes..thanx much to cv kias for coming..n 2/3 of 3some too...bad week for pool,sianz..hope they bounce back soon.real soon...

a lil' perky,cuz relieved ( n cuz i filled my empty stomach :P)..expected-bwang-assignment #1 din bwang..did pretty good instead (which i dun think i deserved)..saved by the curve,i guess..but,still waiting for results of
expected-bwang-assignment #2,haha..i'd be happy to pass it..neway..though it seems kinda free and easy this week,i have to do essays soon...n i'm already lagging in readings.have been for a long time.sianz...n need to think of questions to ask other herbies...

sianz,another depressing case..i see too many parallels...hope things get better,c wed how ba..neway gonna sleep le,class in the morning..

meow.suspected faulty hp.death star,exhaust port.meow.

even more stressball squeezing...squeeze squeeze...

hmm..think my minor inconvenience is making its presence felt..can't overlook it anymore...hope it's not anything incapacitating...whole and whole is the ideal here...sianz,i'm so not ready for imagined WCS, though that situation can be rectified with a pen, a writing pad and a couple of hours.even more stressball squeezing today,esp at ah heng's lect...think it's getting beyond the realm of the mental and going into the physical now...then again,it was alrite in the evening..maybe i just need a shrink...nutcase.

hmm...2 days to actual event.uncertainty,apprehension,lack of confidence.nelly not angry.everybody's laughing.am i the only one who thinks there's something wrong with this scenario?not that i'm being judgmental or anything,i'm just...bewildered?dunno...maybe it's only me who thinks there's a problem, stemming from my own cmi-ness...

i need to sleep...

NV

bro of the igualans,i suppose u ain't in any mood to read blogs and stuff in the near future...neway i've been reading ur recent posts,but din reply.i think u know me too well to believe i'd have faith in anything that sounds remotely like wat jade-salty said.bottom line-i dun wanna say words of encouragement that i dun believe in,sounds empty to me..or maybe it's just the subject matter...i wun know exactly wat u r going thru then n now,different situation,but i can commiserate,i think..that's why i know words of encouragement serve no other function other than to show u that someone cares...nice, even touching, but u'd probably rather have something else.in the end,regardless of how much discussion and talking there is,it still boils down to the individual to put to practice the advice that i think everyone knows in theory. knowing and doing very different.

in short.i know i'm far from the open, easy-to-talk-to and talking type, other than at the very superficial level. still, i haven't gone deaf yet (work still in progress), so if ur usual listeners aren't available for watever reasons,there is still me. i may not know how to encourage, advise, or help u focus on the bright side (if there can be said to be one), but listening is still within my means.

take care.

stressball squeeze

overslept yesterday and missed the morning (and only) lecture of the day..went to buy laptop case, then headed to sch to do essay.theoretically la. stayed in lib for half the day, productivity low..survived till 2000h to borrow book then headed back home...took double decker non-aircon bus back,think it's been years since i last took such buses...neway napped a little,then do essay again...oh,i haven't completed yet,taking one of my many and frequent breaks now...n yes,i noe,i deserve watever crap grade i'm gonna get.not whining here.

neway heard from a secondary source about a conversation that said source had..hmm...2 adjectives and 1 noun,none of which i'd use to describe myself..din help me much even if it was true...neway i guess it's gonna be tees from now on...said source told me about another incident,which may or may not be true/reliable/accurate (source is sometimes confused)...if it's true, which i'm inclined to believe it is, well...not that i'm surprised..i mean,elitism is not exactly unknown or unexpected..but still..hope the fucker..nvm,some things are better left to the imagination..yes,i have quite an imagination, bolstered by non-PG13 comi-ahem..graphic novels...n no,i dun personally noe who said fucker is..n no,dun ever ask me about it,unless u wanna hear me go into explicit content mode (u dun).

read an article about Singap0re and the capital punishment here some days back..have some vague impressions about this particular debate, but not much.neway it's sorta taken for granted liao (at least for me) that some things u just dun do,else u hang.period.some people ought to be hung.esp the fucker mentioned.draconian?maybe.