AAR. n stuff..

sianz,school starting in a couple of weeks.. neway played badminton with some of the hist (+1 eu) peeps today,fun but got a blister on my little finger,sianz..havn't done anything for ism research,sianz...havn't read the books i borrowed for fun reading,sianz..havn't done the things i wanted to do for the holidays,sianz..havn't been hls-ing much,sianz..injured,sianz..
oh well..on the semester aar..

1) need to choose assignments with an eye on dates of submission.
2) need to choose modules with an eye on exam dates. (no duh)
3) need to maintain consistency.
4) need to pay more attention to presentations.
5) need to think of topics very early, way too much time is wasted trying to think of sth..
6) need to keep up with readings.
7) need to make notes thru'out the semester so that exam revision period can use.
8) need to be pro-active for group work,n presentations. dun get stuck with topics that no one'll
touch again..
9) need to be more ruthless.cut away the fat,streamline. (ok,1st thing tml,i'm gonna delete the
files for my ps2 game)

9 9 1 pierce

ok..wat i need..

AAR for the sem..
holiday plans..
something to recharge the batt..
more time..
more running..
more brains..
and a bloody miracle..

woots,ir0n man...

wohoho,robert downey jr to play ir0n man...hmm,but i dun really like him these days, in the wake of civil war...

weekend...i'm at my wit's end,weekend...

woo,tired...went for qjie farewell dinner after prac,went to pick up losers n walk around in sun+ec (got a not-very-impressive DC apparel shop there,opp t0wer rec0rds..so few stuff,only supe n bats stuff) with nana before we joined the others for dinner..after that went to the turk1sh place to drink stuff n nua..lousy cabby,anyhow ask us to alight,bleah..we horlan'd a while before song met us halfway to take us there..after that the usual,went home.tired.thot of doing histo summary before koon-ing but now brain-dead le,tink settle after i wake ba..

sianz,end of 'break' week..kns...1 dot oso not break-y...back to lessons tomorrow...yay.sianz,choir quickly give study break leh,hahaa..(sshh,dun let fush see)

neway thanx to yan for asking questions,havn't met up this sem but u still so concerned for me *dare-freeze*

*zzzzZZZZ*

movies...

ok,a horror title...but j0sh hartnett starring in a film version! good.. no more sucky adaptations!!




















Teenage Mutant Ninja Turt|es...classic leh...




































































sp1derman 3...with alien costume, and sandman..may 2007...




300, adapted from frank miller's graphic novel of the same name,telling the story of the 300 spartans at the battle of thermopylae..





transformers!! cool to check out how they portray the characters..

comics...

this is Wanted. a world where all the superheroes have been defeated by the combined efforts of supervillains, and the world has forgotten the existence of these super beings. protagonist,son of the Killer, has the inherent power to kill (not a particularly constructive power,but a kickass villain power)...shiok...





















Cab|e and Deadpo0l. former's the flashing eye guy, n latter's masked guy..neway ilike this cuz of latter..he's insane,in a funny way..but i prefer the earlier arcs,i think funnier.





















this is spider jerusalem,protagonist of Transmetr0p0litan. i like his nuttiness,n his cynicism towards politicians...as well as his investigative journalism,i think tts wat its called,haha...




















The Losers. rogue CIA black ops unit that was presumed dead (but actually not) n declared war on the agency for being bastards. neway the last trade is coming out in sep 27th (i think)...wanna get!

















The Authority, superhero group that hits at lousy and despotic governments in addition to run-of-the-mill villains..neway there's a gay couple (the black mask/coat guy and the white/yellow guy), druggie(goggled guy,2nd last in backgrd),among others...they're violent,n they dispose of foes in dramatically graphic ways.

cool.



ok,too lazy to post any more..

been a while...

saw weilun (that his name?shit not sure anymore) on bus today,nice to catch up a bit,n he knows edgar,haha..neway got a call from y0ngheng,he getting marr1ed!! was biang,haha...a bit surprised la...neway think my brit pm die le,esp wen compared to grpB...and subsequent grps...in a way its good,ah bo i stress till siao if i in a later grp.nvm,shall not whine liao..think of the assignments coming up,not the ones that r over..

been a while...been slacking my sep away...midterm break's in 2 weeks!! hafway thru the sem!! oct coming!! whoa,scarey,time flies...neway looking fwd to flo bday dinner,igualan gathering,and y0ngheng wedding!n hope legend is successful in his japan shoe hunt,haha,thanx much!!!

ok,so elusive g0ld is not elusive anymore...next step is,of course,to consolidate and build on it...must make it a non-cmi g0ld now..n must acclimatize to longer distance,ah bo dec will die...

i is happy now,looking forward to wed evening... :)

slack

happy weekend of pure play..well,and sleep..

neway headed to sentosa on sat with cvkias for postconcert celebrate-attack-swallow,had fun, though a couple incidents kinda marred the day a little..neway had fun,bottom line..went home to nap,then woke to join witchy n her colleague for the run..quite nice,haha..(but i did an ah pek time :( guess next yr will work on improving ah pek time) recovery din seem too badly oso (apart from sleeping sunday away),legs were pretty ok by mon night, so can consider standchart42k liao.assuming i do my revision for exams well.been a happy mon n tue so far.SEA's always a joy,group discussion went kinda well for histo class,avene||'s oso a joy,usually, and (a bit less) stressd after euro class.well,these,in addition to other non-sch stuff,makes me happy :) hope research for presentation goes well from wed to fri,so weekend will be (relatively) stress-free!neway i'm well past my bedtime,so..ciao.

the good.the bad.

think i slightly injured my ankle after run juz now..(must be the tug jumps.senior citizens shudn't engage in such strenuous activities) so.run was good.aftermath is not.

stressed group discussion.ok,juz that lil bit of stress.group members were nice.then again,they can afford to be.why i in first group??? (see wat i mean about whining?)

Y

The Last Man...totally cool comic from Vertig0

r some things harder to do than i thought?like staying ahead of readings,among other things.

do i still not know where i wanna go?it's only been 2 decades,+..

din i make better use of time to try be a better student?pick up better student skills?spotting exam questions wud b a great skill,methinks.


***
i've decided.tuesday shall mark a return to running.it's been far too long.n i need it.really neeeeed it...

weekend...

i think i have iv|e phobia,or rather forum phobia...1 day never go online only n there r more postings on the forum liao..n i shud be starting to show face on forum soon,i guess,i dun wan 10/100 for participation :(

nvm,back to happy thoughts..last nite finally finished the concert,yay~! though wasn't very well-done,i must admit..but,end of everything,happy!!looking fwd to celebration@sentosa! (erm,it IS a qing gong yan right?) nvm,haha..neway yesterday ma,woke up n did some stuff,1 of which was a rather last min decision.then,realized that i was way too late to make it by train,so went to buy sth to eat then bia cab down,shun bian pick nana up along the way.after that is prac prac prac..ooh,saw hu1jun at the lobby(?) area,syc oso having prac..then aiyer,geogfugue runthru si beh scary...n then,got the stuff from han before concert started..performance came n went,very fast,haa...after that,zobo,took pics,etc...thanx to all who came to support! ooh,n thanx to zj n zj,for performing despite busyness...after concert went kop1t1am,had dessert..ooh,shiok,longtime no eat cold stuff le,haha...eh,tokking cock with igualans,oso longtime no tok le,heh..(LEGEND GO ORGANIZE GATHERING!!!)
neway after that stayed a lil' while longer,made a small detour,then headed home..n stayed online till a bit later then slept..woke in the afternoon,song~this is life man...

boo~ n now back to readings :(

skin

k,this skin shall not b permanent,just a black skin to make myself happy while i procrastinate on getting another skin (in a few months,maybe,ha)

It's Been 1 Week

been a long week..played like crazy during final week of vacation (n totally not sorry about it,esp wen i think of just the fist day of school,but..more on that later).. watched helen and hard candy..helen was kinda touching,hard candy was incomprehensible to me apart from the most superficial of levels..perhaps there wasn't enough character development..oh well,dunno la..went wakeboarding last thu,damn shiok..though i think i kinda verified my hypothesis that i have a learning curve that's quite anti-steep..if y is the learning done n x,the time taken..oh well,proximity to zhengj1e has given me more of a just-whack attitude..erm,nvm..neway the place was shiok,very lazy feel to it..like i holidaying (which,in a sense,i was..) at some nua place (which,again,the place was.is.) oh well,neway fri went to watch fireworks with cv peeps,went to that ulu place..well,ok view,i guess,but kinda distant.and couldn't watch the fireworks that went off at lower altitudes cuz treeline was blocking view.(n 0pt said she watched on sat,with full view.sitting down.no jostling. ENVIOUS~~~) back to fri..neway saw some vc ppl,incl 0pt,at that place-which-i-dunno-e-name..after that,shared cab home..insert a couple of pracs at fush's,+ 2 tuitions,and there went my weekdays..sat was rehearsal at yms.not that bad a rehearsal,though i wasn't too happy about it..so much more could have been better..nvm,not impt,over le..neway after that went qj1e's bday party,talked about some rather sombre stuff while there.had no comments at the time.perhaps a later time.
so.sunday,went back to css for the carn1val thing (nice to see some old faces),reached early to prep for short performance (which i tot was rather pointless,the place was so damn noisy),after that continued with prac..kinda tiring,after a long day,but din actually spend all that time on prac la,had some downtime..spent some time doing readings on way home..hmm,that's more or less the record of me last week of vacation..

well,went over to meng's for pool-chelsk1 match at nite,damn song!! go r11se powerdrive!!
neway headed home after match,to sleep better..

so..school started today,went for class in the morning and late afternoon,both of which i thought was rather interesting (for today,without the burden of class discussion). was kinda thinking it's cool,till i realized that this is supposed to be the slack week,1st week of sch n all..it feels like a (bit lighter) normal week though..hate to think of how crunchtime will b like..

well,crunchtime is here now..my answer to fush's question posed on sat is that i don't noe what exactly it is i want,whether the concert's gonna b a runaway success or not.i dun even have to think about that. what i want is to keep my promise. i promised fat that i'd help for this concert,n that's what i'm gonna try to do. i dun wanna be a presence that,if absent,makes no difference t all,cuz that's not helping (to me),that's just making up the numbers (wait,that was wat fat said to me then,no?haha..)


sense of foreboding(yeah,i'm plagiarizing here,ha..),for more than just 1 thing...n i'm being realistic,not pessimistic.

the hourglass runs low...

sianz..down to last week of hols,before term starts..must make full use of it (while having to do readings also,dammit)
things to do:

tidy up room.i'd sterilize the place,but too bad that's outta reach.for now.
print,zap readings.
read thru said readings n prep for class.
un-mute me lappie.
play.like mad.it IS my last long vacation (i hope) after all.

n have to squeeze in time for work,module meeting,tuitions n pracs.

7 days.feels like 7 min.

darn...

it's been awhile

eek,think cv not used to me moodswings,haha...people asking after me (thanks much)...maybe i shud cut down on my stinkface?

oh well,in not-good mood yesterday,cuz mainly of cough and many other minor things..well,left early to go home,but got detoured a lil on the way back..bought some stuff to munch,n mood got better :) after that went to b00n |ay mkt to see tailor,but unfruitful trip..neway after that went home,nua,slept..

worked today (again,finally!)...put me therapy on for the hourney to work,happy :) then went to work,read comics (for product knowledge,mind u), happy :)

i decided to lift my ban on deafen-meself therapy,since i kinda got my concert songs ok le..yay! now just waiting for wen running therapy can resume..still seem so far away..mum seems rather anti-western medicine...i dun care la,i wan cough to go away,i havn't run in 2 weeks now,any longer n i'd go nuts(ier than i alredy am,n tts anything but good)

last week of vacation...n i still dunno wat last module to take..damn,i'm screwed...

i is happy...

i is happy...

i feel very happy wenever i hear dr l0ckhart talk about year 4,haha...like not as erxin-ly difficult as i feel/hear/fear it may be,still manageable.. met yx,zh1bear n huit1ng for lunch after zapping expensive (n heavy) readings,never seen her before leh..(she really same batch as me ma?haha..) neway saw many people whom i din recognize at the meeting today,haha..n that's only half the cohort,shiok liao lor...like back to being freshie,go everywhere "oh hi,how ya do?my name's sam,n u r?" oh well,neway pr0f farre|| challenged football,too bad (or too good) i dun play,haha..ah bo confirm bwang..neway no distractions,now need to concentrate on 19th,n getting better..
speaking of which,the powers-that-be-up-there,forgive me for i have sinned...well,it was pretty good sinning nehow,haha..erm,guess i'll have to see doc again tml,ha..oh,watched dragontigerdoor just now,erm,din really disappoint me la,cuz i din really expect much from it,haha...fight scenes were not bad though..

eek,the bidding for r1se of m0dern japan is disgustingly high..then again,my pr0gramme acc0unt is disgustingly low on points,tsk..sianz,guess i'm stuck w1th ch1na module le...(i weep for meself wen i think of the probable reading load)

neway saw someone else (i'm ashamed to say that i totally dunno his name) from school on my way home,he lives same place as meng! but he going on exchange,leaving next week..n he is 1 year younger than me,which i dinnoe..haha..oh well,shiok life,exchange is..

speaking of which,kx is going on exchange soon,to p1ttsburgh! n heonna be a concert goer like domee liao,ha..but i not a big dashb0ard c0nfessional fan,so i only that little bit jealous,hahaa...bon voyage to kx,sorry i cudn't make it last sat!

then again,at the end of the day,i is happy :)

of cabby, cancelled plans, and happy talks..

cabby...
well,woke up to gnap's sms this morning,then called the dept n had to bia cab to school..n i realised that i needn't have done so :(
neway the cabby was interesting, encouraging me to 'think gigh, set (my) goals, think big, dare to bia..' n he considers 4k monthly salary for a grad to be failure,fyi..haha,my eyes grew bigger n rounder wen he said that..

cancelled plans...
neway helped a little bit with the flyers at cfa after leaving the dept, cuz sent0sa plans cancelled,sianz...helped vi,j0seph n j0anne a while b4 i headed to clementi to meet wayne for nua gym session..after that went home to change,then went jp to meet best1e,fl0,shuhu1 n jac..after nua a while liao then left with jac to take mrt to town...met witchy just before showtime,then watched the lake house...

The Lake House

adapted from the k-flick Il Mare, i recommend it only for keanu n sandra fans...maybe architecture fans as well...cuz other than these 3 factors, i think the k0rean version is better in every aspect lor..might as well just rent a vid of il mare..i'd watch the korean version twice,in cinema,over the holloywood remake...sianz,hollywo0d version of inferna| affa1rs coming out soon,hope it's not as bad..

happy talks...
so,after the show went to nua at starbux..talked about some stuff,mostly about running though,haa...well,on the way home,talked to her and received rather practical advice...now,i just need to settle my local issues..oh well..shall see how it goes...

..

i finally took it down for the first time in 14 months,with the intention and belief that i dun need anymore... not that i noe i'm right...but,i suppose i'm trading something old for something new..what i used to say before,all have problems,just different types..

"..cuz nothing lasts forever, even cold november rain.." ~Guns N' Roses

Murderba||

went swimming with waynex in the morning, then went je lib cafe to waork on the script stuff with sok..happy to report that we were marginally more productiev compared to the first time we met up..then again,we still have many things to do,sigh...neway went to mar1na ktvwee with legend, chaiyen, 1r1s, joanne, xiugu1 and mr goh,who was late,haha...neway left early to go meet nana for murderbal| at the cathay cineplex juz now, enjoyed it...if i had to choose, i'd trade both supe returns n xmenIII for this show...depressingly uplifting..still,liked it a lot...

wish-gas n stress released abit...

ok,i dun need to whine to witchy liao,i've poured out my grievances le,haha..erm,ok,not that serious la..but i'd still hope to talk to her about some stuff.. n even if i dun have anything to talk to her about specifically,it's always nice to just talk to her,so old frens le...

hmm...hmm hmm hmm...

ok,less whining...

congrats to pau| h0 for marriage soon (or is it over alredy?nvm,he not reading this,haha..)

few days back,realised i made a mistake that i never thought i would make..not that i dun make mistakes,i just din think i was capable of making this particular one...well,not that its a global killer mistake or wat la,doesn't affect anything,actually..still...made me think about some things..
today had lunch at e deck..saw a stimulus that triggered a reaction that was...i dunno..n that made me think about things in opposite direction from some things...

then can't do running therapy this week,i'm down with cough n can't afford to worsen it,sigh...now i only left with self-deafening therapy...i really shud tok to witchy...

meeting...

sigh,this week is meet-up week...meeting up with sok later to work further on the MC script (must be more productive!!), meeting l0ckhart,yx,zx,gnap (i hope) on thu for lunch, meeting bestie n frens on fri,and then witchy in the evening..meeting 3880 peeps on sat...not really helpful to wallet..i need to harden my heart (ok,un-procrastinate) to make some decisions...sigh..maybe i can talk to witchy on fri,i need someone to bitch (ok,whine) to,haha...hope we get the time to sit down n talk,longtime no see her le,hope we havn't grown apart...
sianz,gonna miss the ns gathering that i was looking fwd to..

what a difference a day makes...

sianz,i'm getting bad vibes about year 4...only got 1 outta mandatory 4 modules i need so far,i guess i'm destined for a module i see as uninteresting,can only pray that i'm proven wrong...sianz,kinda disappointed that i din get avene||'s module..oh well,am feeling the consequences of modprefex screwup now..sianz...then tokking to gnap juz now din help much..think i face same problem as yan - need to fight so hard just to stay afloat..kns,got people alredy doing readings n shit liao lor,n i'v done squat..this is depressing...

retail therapy

wasting of money shud be done the old-fashioned way - going to buy stuff from the shops personally,haha..online retail not therapeutic at all...

neway i shiok,bought a mambo slingbag (though not black, the cover redeems all), and 2 action figures (the disciple and corpse bride)..the latter items were by chance, cuz han n i chanced upon the toy sale,yay!!

weekend...

oops,thanx to eve for the rather fallic bday gift,haha...well...that's y i dun like talking about stuff-the actual manifestation of thoughts into the material existence kinda has an influence on the drection thoughts go..hmm...

went jalan for bag today,sianz,all quite ex..though i've decided on wat i want le,but its not black :( nvm,redeeming factor is there...neway while walking around,came aX this shirt in ga||ery,super nice!!n comes with a super price tag!!sianz,imports...realised that there r many nice black shirts around,i shud get out more,haa...erm,wen i un-broke my bank account ba...

i shud go off,shud have gone off...but...tsk...
swordsmen we are,u n i...

the hourglass runs low..

i wanna learn many things that seem pretty useless :( n expensive somemore... opportunity cost.. sianz,suppose i dun have to think about those things now,since i have other priorities.like repay bank in a year, surviving the next year, finding a job, etc.. how exciting..

today's prac,hmm...dunno good or not,i really can't tell.but had good attendance la,haa..think its the best since a longtime ago, with zjie coming back from tek0ng,haha..neway had photoshoot,went for dinner at suntec horse-shay,then i go home,wanted to rest to play bball tml,but papaya fly plane :(
neway was talking to b0ss on the way home,he set a lot of targets for me in 2 months hor..nvm,only 1 is an actual viable and do-able thing now...pray pray...
sianz...i kinda have a rather new perspective on n1ke's slogan..thinking too much is not good..allows excuses,selfishness,etc to creep in,compromising ur desire or ability to do the right thing..hmm,reminds me of the sp1ke lee film that as shown for f1lm n h1st0ry...right is subjective,no? sianz..i wish i could maintain it,but sometimes the mind is willing but the body (or in my case,the wallet) is really weak..they lucky i'm a lazy bastard,havn't cancel yet...though i wish i could continue...sianz...

neway going town check out bags with 2/3some,yay! n welcome keng back from eur0pe...n wish speedy recovery to qq..

i think, therefore i am...

hmm,was talking to 0pt awhile ago...i think i depress her,haha..at the very least i know i'm not cheering her up..neway was with sok n ian at je lib cafe the whole afternoon,working on the script, and watever else needs to be worked on..hmm,got some things done,but not enuff to ease our panic attacks,i think,haha..hmm,anyway sianz,think gotta squeeze brains for creative juices to flow a bit,foresee a lot of creative writing coming up :( neway received another something,terima kasih,that's rather practical n useful..erm,hope i can put it to good use...
seriously, i have no inclination towards thinking at all these days..all i wanna think about now (n its a handful alredy) is surviving my final year, working towards 19 aug, not getting injured, and finishing the 2 runs well.sigh...
LFC home kit unveiled next Mon..hope it'll be good...

eh?

hmm,just hit me..

Qjie said that i have tummy, n that i'm dense..

:'(

hmm...

went blading at ecp on wed with qjie,shuj n nana...fella coupla times,bleah,but fun,haha...ecp is so cool (literally)..tsk,if i have car i go there everyday to run..oops,forgot about the problem of license,ha..neway took bus home,slept all the way..nite went running,think i getting weaker..shud go for 1ppt again soon,haha..

met wayneX at queensway earlier today..saw j1ngy1 (not 3880) at the bus stop outside je lib,she working le..neway wayneX blamed his purchase on me (again),haha...sianz,then cudn't joined papaya n gang for bball at nite...

sianz,tokking to gnap just now,getting panicked about the new sem,sianz...depressing thinking about modules...hope n pray..

went fush's for combined just now,received some more info on how to improve..not sure how much of it i can pt to use though..neway received a question just now..not unexpected (despite my density,i'm not a complete moron) but,well,haha...something i'd rather not think about right about now..hmm...

.

sianz,s+andard char+ered never send me the marathon thing,kns..think only i dun hav :( neway alredy signed up for ah'am liao,hope i dun get injured or anything..neway i think i really die eat-energy for next sem..hmm,dun think..like wat exoc used to say,it wun rain if u dun prepare wet weather programs :)

watched pirates today,long show..lucky i was prepped,haa...n i usually dun like the 2nd part of trilogies,leaves me hanging :( sianz,drag0nlance got new trilogy of the C0mpani0ns liao,i no chance to read yet,sianz..the time will come...hmm,still hanging on to hope that someday someone will make a trilogy of the DL Chr0nicles..neway still trying to push thru 0rientalism now (i got it frm woodlands regional lib btw,yongxi..)

tired but dun feel like sleeping

hmm...woke in the afternoon,online a while,lunched,then went annyouass to run,then met kx for baybeats..hmm,considered buying album,but in the end did not,haha...save money is good,no?
neway saw jas0n-chaotehteh at harry's,he working in a bank now..so good,sianz...hope market still good by the time i graduate,haha..

neway think i shud run annyouass more,the slopes were killing me lor...hmm,ecp is good for the breeze,annyouass for the slopes...more hls before school starts!

weekend...

went to ahkan's place last nite,sat around a while..wx,leohuo,pui,choy,,neo,rock n ccchar|es there,with my kx n mrho..sianz...the biggest ns gatherings,excluding 3880, r usually of this nature (that's twice now)..neway made a faux pas statement there,bleah...wrong context..neway hope leohuo's plans comes to fruition..

so,slept till afternoon today...planning to go esp|anade later in the evening for bb,was thinking of squeezing in some run time before that,in which case,i'll have to get my bum off the chair right about now...erm,nvm..
neway i dun like pool's new euro away kit :( hope the home kit will be good..

stop being lazy!!!

tagged

favourites
favourite colour: black (though yan would say its not a color)
favourite food: if its junk,something minty.if not junk food,none.
favourite song: no one fave
favourite movie: see previous post..oh 1 fave?see above.
favourite sport: running
favourite day of the week: none
favourite season: none
favourite ice-cream: something minty

currents
current mood: i'm almost always pissed. ok,that includes now,happy?
current taste: sorry, not in the habit of licking myself
current clothes: t-shirt and shorts
current deskstop: marvel's civil war. whose side are you on?
current time: 0156h
current surroundings: untidy room
current annoyances: don't bloody remind me, i dun wanna make it a coherent thought.
current thoughts: Of someone.

firsts
first best friend: erm...can't really say..2 first best frens can? meng n han
first crush: Crush, not loves or likes rite? A girl called ****** (i.e. i dun wanna type out 'loud').
first movie: wud YOU remember?
first lie: i'm so saintly that i NEVER lie.
first music: the sweet lullaby of my own voice. and my mum asking me to quit screeching..no really,wud YOU remember?

lasts
last cigarette: Never had one.
last alcoholic drink: don't remember.
last car ride: wednesday, hitched a ride home from the east.
last crush: Crush, not loves or likes rite? A girl called ******** (i.e. i dun wanna type out 'loud')
last movie: Superman Returns.
last phone call: dun remember, seldom make calls.
last cd played: my cdrw of songs. n no,it has no title.

have you ever
have you ever dated your best friend: erm,yes,in the unhappening sense of the word.
have you ever broken the law: i am so saintly that i NEVER break the law.
have you ever been arrested: nope
have you ever skinny-dipped: nope
have you ever been on tv: erm,climbing up on the tv set counts?
have you ever kissed someone you don't know: nope

5 things you are wearing: specs, t-shirt, shorts and underwear la. wait,thats 4..ok,n a smile,just for this one line.
4 things you did today: ate, pissed, drank, typed
3 things you can hear right now: fan, metallica's "nothing else matters", my sis on the phone.
1 thing you do when you are bored: i am so happening that i'm NEVER bored.
.....
ok, i play game.

movies

no,dunno y i feel like typing about them,i just do..so,just 3 of my fave movies:

Memento
Se7en
Sleepers

hmm, watched se7en n sleepers a long time ago,back wen brad p1tt n gwyneth pa|tr0w were still together (i think) {does anyone still remember that??ok,i'm old}...watched memento for a module in annyouass,though i think i bwang that module,at least there're intangible benefits(repeat many times to deal with bwangness)..neway they have most of wat i wud think make a movie good,for myself at least - dark story, human nature(the not good one), no happy endings...oh well....

"Do I lie to myself to be happy? In your case, Teddy...yes, I will" ~Lenny, Memento

...

seen 2 peeps who look like 2 other peeps today..well,seen many faces long unseen today..hmm..i think i'll die of stress if many people go..a handful wud be enuff to content me,methinks..hmm,i think progress is no good,personally at least..so not looking forward to experiencing similar experiences like last concert.
stressed..hope not that many of them actually do go,ah bo i think i die,though that seems contradictory to the interests of the group..oh well,included disclaimer le,despite it being very un-marketing..i dun like people to do stuff that they won't be interested in doing if they din noe someone doing it,do things for the right reasons..perhaps this is why i'll starve to death if i ever have to do sales..never bothered that family never went for any performance..hmm,actually i think i'd feel more at ease if that remained the same..

crap.

bo liao... ...

sian,i screwed up my m0dule preference exerc1se..hope i dun get any modules that r extremely tough(ok,tougher than the average 40o0 module)/i hate...hop i dun get farre||'s class :( and i really hope i can get dr l0ckhart's module in sem2...

neway,did a very nua hls just now,kns..world cup over,no more excuses!!!

going for best1e's commencement later,after that dunno do wat,was tinking of hls before that but doubt i can wake up early enuff..think i'll just go cb|c before that,c how ba..

the glorious wind...

the glorious wind,damn shiok..the sourness in the legs..it will be a good sleep later,i'm sure,yay..

neway had dinner with bestie,flo,crispgreen n legend on fri,thanx to all...ate at han's,then headed to cafe carte| for cakes..after that talk somemore then go home...erm,took bus home with crispgreen,too bad for her i'm real great with making conversation,so most of the journey was spent in silence..neway not that i'm complaining,but i dun really remember knowing her well,ha..i think i spoke to her only that time i saw her at bo0n |ay interchange,(only) a bit surprised she went...and then,reminded once again that it's good to not expect..oh,tokking about totally different stuff now..damn sianz,if something is gonna happen,it's gotta have happened by now,no?sianz...

coupla days..

went to eve's for prac on tue...actually more like doing recording,wa,that's the most efficient reality check ever,sok din even have to send that email liao,had we heard ourselves sooner..neway after that sat down to eat..erm,sandwiches,eggless cake,n ice cream..ice cream was goooood~~~~yay!but 1 ball jitao eat is very uncomfortable..neway sorry nana for blowing out the candle 1st,i really tot u already blew it out the 1st time! (hmm,do apologies to people work when i'm not sure they read this?hah)...neway sorry to people present for the white spray :(

neway after that headed to han's for 1st semifinal,jitualiap vs germans!! haha,del piero is the best,i like the ita|ian old guard better,haha...neway thru to finals,facing france [deserving finalists,regardless of watever rona|do n carvalh0 say (they'r bloody deluded,btw...they'd make great blues-divers n sore losers)],pui...

today met up wif yx n d0cl0ckhart for lunch,his treat!! neway i LPH'd again today,during lunch somemore,kns..damn troublesome...better not cause me any more trouble..after that went town for him to check out his tat stuff,i doubt i'll get 1 soon,if at all-i'm dirt broke now :(

speaking of which,i made an impulse buy yesterday,n impulsively-bought product shud reach me in a week...that's it,i'm gone...not that i regret it or something,+ shopping therapy is really fun n effective...to a certain extent neway..hope i can look at it then and smile.

a day...

went to cine ktv wif cv(fush,song,nana,qjie,yt,ian,eve n shuj) yesterday,entertaining...well,at least entertaining for some of us,haha...neway received card from shuj,terima kasih...after that went lido for red-underwear-gazing...am now considering whether to catch the omnimax version..took bus home after that,n that's the end of another day..lala,one step closer to books again...sianz...

turn the pages turn the stones

sianz,looking thru modules avail for next sem,so sianzzz....all look difficult and/or boring..in short,intimidating...wondering if i'd have been better off graduating...kns,hope i dun end up in a worse state in a year's time..sucky...

sgp no snow..wish how hard oso no use...

woke up in the morning..still felt tired...neway went out to meet han n meng for lunch,then jalan'd a bit...legs sour,sianz...bag heavy oso..i think i'm good at bringing lotsa stuff out to burden myself..neway got a pair of shorts,thanx 2/3some...after that went eunos to meet runmates..hitched a ride to ecp to run...if i had a car n i drove,i'd go there to run like every week la,so shiok...good wind blowing...after that went for dinner,then had a small cake at han's (no,the eatery,not han's house)...after that nua'd home... sianz..now waiting to sleep...

neway happy birthday wanq1 (ang's cousin,haha)

why ask why?can't do nuts even if u have all the answers...

went to han's for germany-argent1na match...heartbreak :( blame it all on the coach,dammit...after that that watched ita|y match thru semi-consciousness...woke in the morning to bia for prac..tired...

terima kasih to song for gift...n terima kasih to best1e...perhaps there r more forthcoming...then again,maybe not...

after choir,had meeting n stuff...hope all goes well for concert..after that went for the yongi thing,n then went to blujaz nua..nice milkshake! :)

after nua session (which helped me gain valuable insight into the significance of sports meets in sec sch),went home...had supper,bathed n saw england crash out..blame who?those 2 chums from manure,who else...oh well,at least stev1eG,carra n crouch can rest now...

i feel a fire in my belly...no,not fired up for/by anything,just the world cup schedule wreaking havoc on my body..

ridiculousity,reciprocity,crypticity( kripsiti ) living in e city...

eh,went jalaning wif han in the day,went bug1s juncti0n then to town..saw a shirt,dunno if i shud buy..looks kinda,maybe,abit happy,but it fulfills all the criteria i wan for a t-shirt leh,tsk...sianz..after that went je passed scores to shuj then went lib to get some books..non-fiction,i might add..feeling mighty proud of meself..after that rtu,too damn legsour'd..

think its dying soon,i shud start looking for next spring.. :( waste money again

hmm,at this rate i'm going,i wonder if i'll still hear...it's gotta go someday,next year or the year after,if not this year..thought i may have received something nice,but it was just nice..same?no different..some nice's are different from other nice's..oh well...

oh i shud tok about 2 nice ppl i encountered during 1ppt yesterday,no? so i overto0k this guy A,n he gave me a thumbsup..i din really noe wat was going on,so i reciprocated in courtesy...then i overtook this guy B n he cheered me on!! like wtf?????i run like siao,panting like QJ's dogpant exercise liao n he still have lung power to cheer me on?? oh well,that was nice...err,i din have e breath to say thanx,so i gave him a thumbsup too..neway shook hands wif guy A after the run..no,i dunno y..he just happened to walk to somewhere near me after the run n since there was nothing to do except stand n face each other in awkward silence,we just shook hands..

had a freaky dream last night,dreamt that my granpa was some evil spellcasting,humansacrificinge erm..person...dammit,almost shit my pants... :( maybe i was more tired then i realized..

yan beware,i have another idea brewing for 1gualans.yada-u-noe-where.com
better hope i get too lazy to get started on it,mwahaha...

time is money...no,really...

kns...another time experiencing very expensive seconds...argh~~~i wanna cry :( shud have bia'd more...i have decided,i am too easy on myself,i need to push myself more.wait,i already know that,i just need to do something about it..tsk.

shud get out more...

of faceless sandmen and football...

sianz...annoying when i have a sandman and can't remember what it was about..i only remember who was in it..n it had to happen twice in the span of 4 days,meaning i got annoyed,then a bit better,then annoyed again...

neway think i gotta crash at han's this fri,someone coming over for the night n i dun wanna be around :( no,not dislike said visitor,just...not feeling like staying under the same roof,regardless of how different circumstances are now...dun want different memories of similar contexts,however strained the similarity is..oh well,germ@ny's playing argen+ina neway,so i'm extremely justified in crashing at han's :)


so...jitualiap is thru..not exactly unhappy,but dun like gr0sso's chao keng-reminds me of regg1e mi||er's chao keng vs the kn1cks in the playoffs so many years ago..oh well,too bad for aus,but nvm la,good enuff to have made it this far..

can't wait for aug,wen ep| starts...yay!

a day...

oops,juz back from all nite out..lucky i never play bball yesterday,ah bo i concuss by the time argen+ina kicked off...woohoo!!chio goal by maxi r0driguez!! by right me5si shud have won it though,but linesman kelong..but nvm la,ref was frenly enuff to argen+ina,haha...dirt tired now...

eh,yesterday morning woke up to gloomy weather,so killed my appetite for bball,esp after i started gaming,ha...after that,went for prac..quite off eh..after that went to buy stuff...after that took cab to west coast park..the place not bright,no good...the view of the sea blocked,no good...no breeze,no good...i was off form,extremely no good :(

after that,most of the people returned home,left me,nana,eve,song to join legend at max..stayed at maccafe,then ah jenn joined us a while,passed her the book vouchers,then we headed for playground while jenn joined legend in watching the germany game before meeting her fren in town..came back to a slightly less crowded max,then watched the arg match,yay!! exciting ar...

eve left halfway,then the residual personnel finished watching the game n whoosh,suddenly max cleared in a min...stoned there a while,then legend rtu in prep for game later..left us trio went to playground again awhile,after that went for breakfast...

lala,24 hours passed liddat...

shiok

the sweetness of plain water...the easing of hunger pangs...the feeling of soury soreness in the legs...the numbness in the toes...the concussed heavy headedness...n the pillow and mattress underneath...

shhhiok~~!!!

991pierce

back from run..wanna die ar,haha...but this time better than the last time i attempted this route,at least i din feel anything weird..neway eating n drinking now,running is good for appetite! :)

sports:
neway argentina looking good this world cup,haa..yay,hope they go all the way!
sianz,dallas threw the tie away,from 2-0 lead to trailing 2-3,kns..but dw@yne w@de damn good la..

hmm...feeling light/heavy(dunno,can't tell the diff) headed now after run,think will concuss soon...

been pretty unaffected wen i heard about something..maybe just a little surprised,or unexpected..hopefully i'll be able to replicate unaffectedness wen i hear something similar in future..IF i hear anything related at all..

i tot i had something more to type,but i'm dirt concussed right about now n can't remember..

and the world comes to a standstill...

hmm,watched opening match at han's..not impressive,though the goals were nice..neway after that accompanied meng to see poem-cloud home,after that went geylang to buy supper..saw 2 doggies that looked...very un-cute..neway after that stayed on for second match,everyone dozed off halfway,haha..neway p0lska lost,orbi they drop dudek..

went for prac,had junk lunch,after that went city hall again,hah..ate at marina foodcourt, then went paccof to slack awhile b4 heading home..

haha,apparently eng|and wasn't very convincing either..tsk tsk...

coupla days..

met rock on the way to jp on tue..tokked a bit..longtime no c ppl from ns days.well,other than the same group of people,ha..taking astrology,haha...interesting..

today,went jalan for most of the day with han..walk here walk there,legs very sour..waited till nite meng joined,then walked a bit more..after that he headed to visit poem-cloud cuz she's sick..me n han headed home..neway while jalaning at peninsu|a, saw |ynd|ey (n his bro,n some other girl),shopping for shoes..saw crispy-green on my way home,talked a bit..

sianz,think i have to cut down on the titles i buy..maybe next time will only buy limited series,sigh..
now waiting for u|timate extincti0n,l0sers,u|timates,think thats it ar,sianz..more n more dun like u|timate xm,stories kinda getting sianner..art not that good oso..miss the kubert bros,sigh...

1 more day to world cup!!!

than usual...

hmm...sianz..more so than usual..well,at least i now know that i probably will not wanna do sales.oh well,take things as they come,ya?go with the flow..
neway received a pretty unexpected message,n thinking of why some things shouldn't b done..n still can't really think of good reasons.some things aren't done just cuz you dunno wat may happen..n better the devil you know than the one you dun,no?*memories of midnite nati0n..*
neway also started me thinking on some stuff..not the things i care to remember..those times were a blast,no worries,no cares,just be the troublemakers..still,sometimes its kinda stupid the things that were done..n brainless..n idiotic..n inconsiderate,to say the least..n sometimes i wonder how we got away from some of the things we did...some things i dun think can/should be explained away with by just the ignorance/stupidity of youth..


i think i'm sianz-er than usual,oops mentioned that..more senile too then.

9 9 1 pierce

eh..went for eve n fush's recital last nite,saw ongtaitai n every flag,n junsalty..hmm,she (flag) moved to serangoon, no wonder dun c her around le..

neway results were kinda ok,overall improvement but had hoped to do better..oh well..sianz,now need to write letter to bank..

sianz,restored phone memory frm mem card the other day,to a point wen it was effin long ago..kns,lost some of my contacts,most messages n a few notes,kns (again)...my sandmen :(

went walking around in town today,longtime no jalan le..but kino was closed for stocktake,sianz..

been slacking around,but ok la..tell urself-this is the last chance to nua le...

neway congrats to legend,gonna to spread his legendary love around the world liao...2 flyers in the group,next time wanna buy things from overseas can ask them to do saigang,yay!

hehe,n i've tot of yan's story for igualanblog liao,mwahaha..

slacker..

raining now..sianz...

caught mi3 earlier today,pretty ok,i guess..neway saw bestie,then jac at west ma||,slacked a while wif jac before the show..after that went back annyouass to run..i am weak.need to run more,ippt coming!!

neway yanting called a few days back,from germany..sianz,yr 4 will b kinda sianz,many ppl grad liao..guess that makes it easier to meet up with ppl remaining..

had another sandman last nite..this time,it was a lil' closer to reality.yip,pee.oh well,dun complain wen u get something bonus-y..

i hate rain.

movies...

watched daweenchee coad on sat,pretty ok,i guess..though i din like where it went in the end..oh well,it was worth watching.
neway watching xxx,oops,x3 this wed..sianz,i already dun like juggernaut (not beefy enuff,looks like either SM fan or gladiator,n he's a few centuries late for the latter) ,psylocke (they had to make her bad??),angel(dun think he looks wwIII enuff),fastball special(colossus is supposed to b a lot stronger than that..that's wat u get for casting HJ as wolv) and ,in addition to stuff i dun like from the 1st 2 shows (mag's costume,for one..put him in civies better,i say)...+i dun like gwen stacy from spidey3..n i dun like mahjong-playing superhero..oh well,at least there r somethings to look forward to..
thinking of watching miIII sometime over the next couple of days...

way cool..results out in 3 days..yay,so damn excited.

weekend...

ok,so it wasn't that bad...pool won the fa cup,and finally tokked to long lost good fren (hereafter referred to as LLGF),if only a little..obviously,said friend is no longer long-lost and good..well,fren is still there,i suppose..still dun really know wat happened.oh well,things that i'd rather not happen but happen nonetheless,since things dun not happen just cuz i dun want them to happen.

missed bball,sianz..hope they play again next week...

the past week..

hmm..played bball on sun,fun..longtime no play..there was a brazi|ian oso,mauro (i think)..i think i have a good impression of brazi|ians,cuz 2 outta 3 that i've met are pretty nice..neway after that went to work,sianz,cuz whole body sour..
mon,went to say ciao to yan n qq at airport..we were AS,cuz dunno other ppl there..neway saw sylvia at the airport oso,nice..after that had lunch,then headed home..capped off a tiring day with tuition..
tue n wed i slacked..stayed home zbl,watched show,played game (a bit)...

thu went sch to hls,after that went lib to check out some books,but borrowed none cuz none looked interesting..neway saw zx in lib,he oso went to look for books,so hardworking..eh,then zbl somemore,went home,then went for prac at nite..yay,i like small group,haha..had coconut sth rum (flagrant) at eve's place,n hitam,n lotsa food :)

today went to occ play paintball! havn't been there since jc grad nite,haa..fun fun..but i think we bought too few ammo,not shiok enough..in addition,i think not very painful leh,despite the others' complaints,haha...more~~

sianz looking forward to weekend..probably shouldn't,but usually does..somehow it seems quite apoca|ypsey..oh well..sianz...hope pool wins the fa cup,ah bo they go bang head against the wall liao...1 week of may gone,next week is CL final (yay!),the week after is x-men3 (yay!) n after that is results :( sianz...
i should start on my plan to walk around doing nothing constructive soon,since i dun think i'll have game to play in the near future...

sianz..

raining now.heavily.sianz...

i dunno voting results..guess it doesn't matter to me..

i hope manure loses tml..

hols now..still lazing around..sianz..

world cup coming...but like nobody around,no atmosphere..sianz..

why 2007 so far away?can't wait for g0d of war 2..sianz...

i got no games to play now,all finished le..sianz..

i hope cast|evania movie wun b sucky.wen will next cast|evania game b out?sianz...

results out on 25th later this month..hope i dun do badly.sianz..

went to bp plaza for dinner just now(black shirt is da best), then ice cream place for dessert..bandung ice cream good.but i dun like the staff there..neway came home n read about those US funeral picketers..read about them before,but din register in my mind how disgustingly disgusting they are..

hope tml morning dun rain,i wan bball.sianz..

raining now.heavily.sianz..

the past week...

the past week..hmm..lemme see...when did i not go lawlib to study?can't think of one day,before today...go lawlib is good-not crowded,long table,toilet near..go lawlib not good-uh uh guy(hereafter referred to as UUG) irritating the crap outta me..i suppose it's all too possible that UUG was suffering from some throat irritation,then need to clear throat very frequently or sth..it's still damn irritating...esp in the morning,UUG would go "uh uh" at high frequency and intensity..uh with a vengeance!! ok,i'm mean..but i'm irritated..and irritated me = meanie me.. no, not mini-me..sianzzz...

then went src one of the days,kns,trapped in elevator..if lift spoilt should just put "you WILL be trapped in the lift",instead of "should"..neway got out soon enuff,with the help of yan's (very long) fingers (pressing for the lift from the outside)..wat world is this,when i can't be lazy without getting trapped in lift??

2 down...

in a day..after tomorrow's paper,i'll just have 1 more mod to seriously study for..good: the worst will be over soon. bad: there is a lot of worrying..perhaps i may not get to prolong my student life after all..see how,sianz..neway on to better things :)
after sat's paper i plan to reacquaint myself with ps2,haha..been far too long since i chopped sliced and mutilated something..sianz,think this sem will be quite disappointing,esp comparing with last sem..well,last sem received an unexpected boost,hope this sem will as well,sigh...then after sat's paper can start to tidy up room liao,disgustingly messy now..neway jack got the teaching award le,he gonna be rich next sem!!
can't wait for CL final..can't wait for world cup,tho i think i'll only watch a few here n there..hope i can get to work more in hols...hope i can get to continue tuition in hols steadily...hope i can get better-than-expected results (c'mon,my expectations are as low as they get liao,how hard can that be?)... hope i will do something constructive in hols and not waste it away...

i am full of hope in life...

rainy sunday..10 days...

dragged my sorry s to sch,saw szeavoid at kr terminal..hmm,if she din say hi back,i would be wondering if i mistook someone else for her,she looked differenter..nvm..neway did some work in lib,then headed to yih to carry on..did that bit of not-very-productive work till evening,when it rained heavily again..pissing me off..will my vacation be spent indoors listening to the rain lashing outside?depressing...as if being in the state of brokeness isn't enough..

went beat bun dinner,went 711 to buy some stuff,n saw pluck-zero there..longtime no c le,she said she's working in ntu as technician..everybody working le..i must extend my days of non-work...i dun wan additional responsibilities so soon..sianz...

1st paper in 10 days...screwed...

i shall devote myself to the worship of the Cult of Curves right after exams...hope the curve saves me,haha...somehow after the talk by g0rd0n,i'm more apprehensive about 4th year liao..then again,not like i have a choice,i am not ready to graduate...

sianz...

24...and jenn...

amazingly untired,despite 1 whole day up..hmm...yesterday ah kua used the universal truth example 1st used by timB to as an analogy for class..hmm,dun think i ever told myself how much i hated that. i.hate.that.example.

neway to jenn,if and when u read this before i contact you..

paiseh,din reply-was bathing when u msg'd n nudged me..ok,nudged my chat window..erm,i think set it at 3rd may 1st ba,though i havn't checked with the others* yet,we accomodate your schedule,haha...yan said he ok,u said u ok,so most important and busiest people ok liao...i ask them and then update on igualans.blablabla accordingly lor..


the others* - any igualan who is not sam, yan or jenn. (bui not even considered,hahaha)

sunshine and shadow

tired...been awake for a long time...feel like sleeping but there's tuition later.maybe soon after..maybe not..was a gloomy morning,drizzling and dark clouds...n then i saw sunshine,and shadow at the same time...not good,i have a bad feeling about assignment,but i think it could have been worse..oh well..after that printed notes,sunshine-shadow continuing...
stressball again..somehow it always seems to hit me during ah heng/kua's lect..maybe the LT's too cold..

i want to put s|ipkn0t,spinesh@nk,mud\/ayne,mari|yn mans0n,in f|ames,chi|dren 0f b0d0m,and crad|e of fi|th on and go full blast..if i were to choose between ech0 and DD,i'd go with the former..of course,t'would be better if i could choose azrae|,as long as it was quick..oh well,at least i dun rx certain messages,assuming it's not too much a bother..that would have been virtual slow and painful and non-conclusive azrae|...

obviously,i need to sleep.

sianz...

i hate propose your own topic essays..drained...hope it will have a decent pass,at least..and hope i will get a decent pass for tut participation..now i think my midterm grades not enough for damage control,though bestie scolded me for spoiling mrket,haha...please please please be kind,clanC..

neway general trend of assignments this sem - 1st assignment of a module usually pretty good,then 2nd assignment would have gone downhill,sianz...excluding soci of food,cuz it only has 1 assignment..most regretted module ever...hope i dun bwang this sem..wait,i know i can see the brighter side of things..wait...I KNOW! at least i can say that my 2nd assignments were able to go downhill (implying that i started off the 1st assignments from a higher point, which then made it possible to go downhill)..hmm...i wonder if there's any use for this kind of..optimism,other than for self-deception..

sianz,i miss the days when i was content with certain grades..now,focus is on damage-control,need a lot better..

went for the talk for hon yesterday,kinda having 2nd thoughts about how suited (or not) i am to do 4th year..i need to develop powers of speech, i need to develop better working habits and i need to develop my brain more..i already need not consider thesis le,ism also no need to think liao la...just need to think about the basic requirements-regular reading, talking and thinking..somehow, despite how simple it sounds, it's a daunting prospect..nevermind,i'm just thinking for fun..not like i'm ready to graduate this year.. i.do.not.want.to.work.yet.


oh well,going to school liao...yay.

weekend...i'm at my wit's end...

hmm...yesterday,a bat was in my room...not moving..i tot was dead,tinking of how to clear it up..laobu touched it with newspaper n it fluttered around...suddenly,bruce wayne din seem tt nutcase anymore..neway after getting it outta the house,had to deal with shitty issues-like bat shit..kns,come into my room n crapped..only a little only,not so bad..hope bat is ok..hmm,dunno...

neway went to donate something at sgh again this morning..spent a total of 4 hours there,1 was spent trying to get my blood flowing..sianz,both forearms sore,2 holes each-3 failed holes before my blood finally felt like flowing properly..oh well,my fault,i suppose...neway did 2 things that i havn't done ince i was a kid in the wardroom..damn..oh well,no big deal...
took yet another step back in operation reverse-dirt-brokeness,was a kaicius again..longterm somemore.sigh...good cause,good cause, goodcause,goodcausegoodcausegoodcause...

did a little work today..not enough..more needed..time is running out..wat to do?? hate late deadlines...

unproductivity...

sianz,with my productivity (or lack of it) if i were a layer, i'd be a mcnugget by now..neway slept till 1+ today,slack..lunched,then went for final tut (wtf,last tut le..exams just around the corner)..planned to stay back in sch to study abit then go hls at nite,but...weather looked ominous..din wanna get stuck in sch with heavy rain (which looked all too probable) so headed back home for dinner...so.one day.done nothing.well,at least i did better than expected for midterm..still,all signs point to a downward slide in assignment grades..already true for vietnam le..oh well,keep complacency away,for as long as possible...

then just realized i din do sth for my genbio assignment,which may or may not cause me to lose unnecessary marks..kns..maybe they included that in the instructions,or maybe not..dun care,i just wanna pass..hopefully can meet up on 3rd may,with decent attendance..ah bo its the same people showing up,and the same people mia..not that the people who show up are not good,just that it'd be good to see the others once in a while,y'know...sianz..oh well..

was thinking of not watching the CL matches this week n just get some rest for studies and stuff,but...doubt i'd miss them,haha...2nd leg after all..

sianz...

NVd planned mobility

sianz..rainy day=sianz+not good day...it should just rain over the reservoirs, not anywhere else..
some posts are better left uncommented..
toast to friendship,past and present..
counting down,to 1?

dammit,raining again..sianz...and sb playing malay songs pretty loudly,for this hour...wait kena complain,haha..

little stressball today...

i remember

wat i wanted to post the last time but did not..so was watching natgeog channel at meng's,wen everyone was asleep,so kinda watching this program in between dozing off-dark side of something la..i only watched about hippos and chimps..will never see these 2 animals in the same light again..neway regarding the latter,maybe it'd make me less critical of ourselves?dunno,probably not,but still..depressing that a species other than us is capable of some things once thought an exclusively human...neway..

so..conducted interview with solitary interviewee,and kinda surprised at some of SaidInterviewee's mentality towards issue of interview...not that i expect SI to have same,or even similar,ideas as i do..oh well,diversity in life,haa..neway SI has good frens...

sianz..owe many people birthday gifts..think this shall be theme le,owe at least 4 months then give present,haha...bui's will be even longer..neway resumed HLS today!shall keep up the good work.erm..after i finish my 2 essays,haha...oso stayed in sch till sky black! though not very productive,but better than nothing!yay!no more slacking! (keep repeating to self till self is convinced)

i miss sotn,i wan to play it again..hope i can find :(

.

so.3 more essays and i'm headed for exams...hope hope this sem wun regress.if at all possible,improvements wud be good.even a little..

neway been sick the past month (no,not that i'm bedridden all this time,just on n off sicknesses)..longtime no hls le,went running on friday nite..weak!!! must run,must run more...ok,now workload's kinda lightening,sicknesses kinda going away..must resume....
neway i like this doc,cuz that time i LS till legs nua,he told me since i have no appetite,just eat anything i wan as long as it's not milk,fried or greasy foods.for e.g. rice la,soft drink la..good doc,i say..

neway think i've been too nua these past few years..and i've been regressing..i shud take the next step le,been kept in view since long time ago neway..hmm..shall see how it goes..

can't think of other things i could've wanted to post,going to sleep le...

sianz..not making much headway on essays..need to do work!! neway was checking out some forums,amazing fan art by some of the people...longing for symphony of the nite again~~ sigh,the best ever... sianz..gonna be a long long vacation (i hope)...hopefully will get around to doing something,anything and not just complete my games...speaking of games,sigh...will symphony run on ps2??so tempted to geddit...

btw,i hate japanese songs that are beneath my range..hullo,i dun get to nap before i sing ok?compose friendlier songs leh..sakura,that's good...still comfortably within my range,haha...

neway hope i get something done later..

nein

so...

VV's over,a relief...though i planned to leave choir after this year,i seem to have some reservations about it..dunno,c how it goes..thanx much to cv kias for coming..n 2/3 of 3some too...bad week for pool,sianz..hope they bounce back soon.real soon...

a lil' perky,cuz relieved ( n cuz i filled my empty stomach :P)..expected-bwang-assignment #1 din bwang..did pretty good instead (which i dun think i deserved)..saved by the curve,i guess..but,still waiting for results of
expected-bwang-assignment #2,haha..i'd be happy to pass it..neway..though it seems kinda free and easy this week,i have to do essays soon...n i'm already lagging in readings.have been for a long time.sianz...n need to think of questions to ask other herbies...

sianz,another depressing case..i see too many parallels...hope things get better,c wed how ba..neway gonna sleep le,class in the morning..

meow.suspected faulty hp.death star,exhaust port.meow.

even more stressball squeezing...squeeze squeeze...

hmm..think my minor inconvenience is making its presence felt..can't overlook it anymore...hope it's not anything incapacitating...whole and whole is the ideal here...sianz,i'm so not ready for imagined WCS, though that situation can be rectified with a pen, a writing pad and a couple of hours.even more stressball squeezing today,esp at ah heng's lect...think it's getting beyond the realm of the mental and going into the physical now...then again,it was alrite in the evening..maybe i just need a shrink...nutcase.

hmm...2 days to actual event.uncertainty,apprehension,lack of confidence.nelly not angry.everybody's laughing.am i the only one who thinks there's something wrong with this scenario?not that i'm being judgmental or anything,i'm just...bewildered?dunno...maybe it's only me who thinks there's a problem, stemming from my own cmi-ness...

i need to sleep...

NV

bro of the igualans,i suppose u ain't in any mood to read blogs and stuff in the near future...neway i've been reading ur recent posts,but din reply.i think u know me too well to believe i'd have faith in anything that sounds remotely like wat jade-salty said.bottom line-i dun wanna say words of encouragement that i dun believe in,sounds empty to me..or maybe it's just the subject matter...i wun know exactly wat u r going thru then n now,different situation,but i can commiserate,i think..that's why i know words of encouragement serve no other function other than to show u that someone cares...nice, even touching, but u'd probably rather have something else.in the end,regardless of how much discussion and talking there is,it still boils down to the individual to put to practice the advice that i think everyone knows in theory. knowing and doing very different.

in short.i know i'm far from the open, easy-to-talk-to and talking type, other than at the very superficial level. still, i haven't gone deaf yet (work still in progress), so if ur usual listeners aren't available for watever reasons,there is still me. i may not know how to encourage, advise, or help u focus on the bright side (if there can be said to be one), but listening is still within my means.

take care.

stressball squeeze

overslept yesterday and missed the morning (and only) lecture of the day..went to buy laptop case, then headed to sch to do essay.theoretically la. stayed in lib for half the day, productivity low..survived till 2000h to borrow book then headed back home...took double decker non-aircon bus back,think it's been years since i last took such buses...neway napped a little,then do essay again...oh,i haven't completed yet,taking one of my many and frequent breaks now...n yes,i noe,i deserve watever crap grade i'm gonna get.not whining here.

neway heard from a secondary source about a conversation that said source had..hmm...2 adjectives and 1 noun,none of which i'd use to describe myself..din help me much even if it was true...neway i guess it's gonna be tees from now on...said source told me about another incident,which may or may not be true/reliable/accurate (source is sometimes confused)...if it's true, which i'm inclined to believe it is, well...not that i'm surprised..i mean,elitism is not exactly unknown or unexpected..but still..hope the fucker..nvm,some things are better left to the imagination..yes,i have quite an imagination, bolstered by non-PG13 comi-ahem..graphic novels...n no,i dun personally noe who said fucker is..n no,dun ever ask me about it,unless u wanna hear me go into explicit content mode (u dun).

read an article about Singap0re and the capital punishment here some days back..have some vague impressions about this particular debate, but not much.neway it's sorta taken for granted liao (at least for me) that some things u just dun do,else u hang.period.some people ought to be hung.esp the fucker mentioned.draconian?maybe.

...

saw an owl just now..think i'm mountain tortoise,but first time i've seen an one!! sianz,tired...concert coming up in 5 days, counting down..hope all goes well..

neway recently realized why i dun like bon Jov1 post-these days...the newer albums all sound so...happy,sigh...neway 2 people have mentioned something about my choice of music,i suppose it's true to some extent..still,nothing much i can do..i just dun buy it...

sianz,i hope i can retrieve some things soon,currently inaccessible...hope i dun lose them for good..

sian...

watched a clip from ghost rider..seems pretty cool,but have to wait till next year,tsk...neway i like audioslave vocals,tho' i think their songs a bit nua..then again,i've only heard a few.. what's there to look forward to in the immediate future? hmm...v for vendetta, like nothing much le...x-men 3 in may,perhaps..reading house of m just now,|00 bullets take a back seat when i have something more mainstream to read,haha...

sianz,lagging...

Belated Ah Jenn...

thanx to jenn for the treat...must find time to use ur '05 birthday gift k?ah bo it'll feel very sad collecting dust in the drawer,hahaha... neway sorry for late celebrations,sorry for the even later gift (dunno when it'll materialize)..
called bui just now,he sounded stoned..k,maybe he's feeling stoned,due to sickness..everybodys sick these days...
neway good luck to legend for later...sianz,talked a bit just now about what we gonna do after school...basically depressingly sianz...owe one fart-drum debt...

GN'R!!!!!

woohoo~~!!! new tracks from gn'r!! hope the album comes out soon,too long in the making liao..

an aberration... :)

hmm...saw BH at cine last wed,tokked abit,mostly about me,haha...paiseh i din ask about him,but i was rushing for work,haha...

hope prac was ok just now,no time no time...
this break unproductive again,as expected...sianz...but at least choir getting better..erm,in my opinion la,haa...
neway some pracs back, nelly explained wat agnus dei means..think he'd flip if he hears any lamb of god song,haha..assuming he lasts one song..

n thanx to the cure,ah bo i wun even dig out my ho|y wood album...think its my first n only concept album,think its one of my fave ones..nice cover + pure depression,wats not to like?haha...sianz,then i realized its only part of a concept album tri|ogy,tempt me to buy the other 2...nah~ i have more self control now,hah!

had diytherapy again just now,yay! think if maintain then i'm on my way to sub945 le,yay! but ran on (more-or-less) empty stomach,i'm dying of hunger now :(

midterm break

sigh...why midterm break so early?so many things to do,so little time to do them..

yesterday heard some grand plans for cv,haa,courtesy of legendary legend...think by the time fat comes back,everybody suffering from delusions of grandeur liao,all thanx to legend,haa...ok,shall save for our mini-bus...at least we finished geogfugue yesterday,haha...but still,little time left le...

today,worked. i'm into |00 bullets these days,haa..sianz...

tomorrow...think i may not join them for badm,no time liao...need to survive the night..sigh,think i'll just go for usual therapy at night,i'll probably need it...sigh...dun be spoiler...no time no time..


i need a partition, and a format..too much useless junk lying around..

sigh...

stressball...

got to arrange consultation today,lucky..ah bo think i bwang my essay more... neway sianz,damn tired..spent the whole day doing and prepping essay stuff...bloody heavy bag...walking around...had a mistake-intensive day,been (more of) a screwup..lucky work is tomorrow,ah bo think i no need to take back sundays-they'll be returned to me on a plate...sianz...

stressball day, sianz...but at least it had a good start,thanx for the message,witchy..too bad i dun have much to spread around in the first place...not in the mood either,haa..

oh well,2 more days of less-than-required-amount-of-sleep, sigh..

hits n misses...?

i think the blood extraction experience is kinda novel..the after-effects are familiar,the none-numbing is not..i shud go for more of this,haha...neway woke up early to go for that screening la,sianz...neway did the reading for essay due soon,sianz - dun understand the point the author is trying to make half the time.i'm screwed...

neway i'm glad it wasn't me,i'd hav died (ok,i'm overstating things a lil')...no,dun think i'm being selfish here,really..others wudn't,i would.neway it's an academic individual mental discussion,no point to it all,really..sianz...
hope i dun have to dry the rest.right about now,there is only one confirmed hit.darn.

half the sem gone...deadlines coming...quickly get ur closure,u *beep*..no point having to wait till there's no work left to do, is there?

read my eyes off

worked for 3 hours doing something so time-consuming and tiring that i hope i never do it again..if it gets to be a daily thing,i'll have no regrets wen the time comes for me to take back my sundays..neway after that i did catching up for my reading of comics (product familiarization,ok?), finally approaching the end of transmetropo|itan,yay~
neway as expected,had zero productivity today,sianz...tomorrow got health check...

"paranoids are those who have all the facts" ~spider jerusa|em

i've been tagged

Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used.

1) Deafening myself on my cd player.

2) Having a stranger being nice and proving my basic assumptions wrong.

3) Spending time with friends.

4) Running at night at AnnYouAss, thinking about nothing.

5) Feeling perky,happy when i'm feeling perky,happy.

i almost answered in the mold of 'i wish for sth',kns...too many years never do comprehension le,fail!!

neway i tag:

Domee
The Cure
Clubber
Witchy
ZeroPoint


(oi,yan..if the person i tagged doesn't know i tt he/she's tagged or doesn't have blog doesn't matter right?haha...)

weekend...

just went for meng's hall dance,quite entertaining,tho a lil' long...sianz,low productivity today..hopefully tml oso...then wen took pic with side-ing,meng said i dunno how to smile...wtb,i dunno how to smile meh?kns...neway i ws thinking about concert coming up,kinda worrying...i get the feeling that midterm break will have to chiong pracs liao...

have been tinking about wat ah heng said about ah kwa's analogy-tt-was-not-said-this-sem,dunno..suppose it's 1 of those so-general-tt-it-can-apply-to-anybody thing...nvm,not impt...

neway i guess i have to postpone Operation Taking-Back-Sundays,i'm just too damn broke...but think i'll definitely quit latest by august,if i'm still a student by then...

more than a bit pissed off the past few days (no,nothing in particular happened,just one of those days),mixed with a the usual doom-n-gloom...went for tuition yesterday,i suppose i gave kid a lil' stick for something relatively minor...shifted from gear one to six with nothing in between...not healthy...

neway i like the post on wil's blog,the one about poets n death n shit,haha..oh well..

of stupidity

unbelievably so...took me 15,20 min to figure out what was so obvious that i shud have realized it as soon as i saw it...not that it's an impt matter or anything,but...nvm,shall see in time...

stupid...

rojak...dammit,metaphor is contributing to hunger...

had another sandman a few days back,cloud...different from how i remember,haha..oh well,doesn't matter..

sigh,so unfair..how come japan's 7-11 got yosh1k1 while we got taufick??kns...

dammit,hope it was work again..i dun wan swaymouth..

discovered sth about a fren today,surprised..maybe that's the reason for the life-loving?

ran a very short run just now...exciting,doing my best not to slip n thus tak glam(~clubber),haha...but dun think it was very productive...sianz,lousy rain..rained whole day le still rain at nite,kns...

was reading the forum for a particular mod, n i was thinking how come my perspective so drastically different from the not-so-distant-past,but after i read another mod's forum,i was kinda relieved cuz i was seeing things as i did in the not-so-distant-past,i.e. catch no ball,cheem stuff,etc...think the guy must have been cheated by some chiong academic or sth before, ah boh he's just excessively paranoid in the conspiracy theory mold...

sianz...midterm break coming soon...half the sem about to fly by...sianz..

memory is unreliable.memory is fallible.memory is fluid.
objectivity is an unattainable ideal.
the same actions in a different context has different meaning and significance.
truth is irrelevant.as long as you believe something is,it is.

this fucking sucks.
no it doesn't,u r making it sucky for urself.stop blaming other people.
just cuz i make things sucky for myself doesn't mean this doesn't suck.n this was never about blame.

swearing heathens burn in hell.
wait,heathen doesn't work in this context..i'd need someone else for it to work.fuck.

A Good Weekend...A Not So Good Weekend...Good...Not Good...Good...

hmm...this whole week been super slack..din do much work..lagging in everything...readings lagging...sigh,i dun wanna contribute to country's employment figures yet..i dun wan this to be my last sem...no,i simply luurvve~~ Ann U. Ass too damn much,cannot leave so soon...

good weekend,finally got the laptop...been a happening weekend,haha...reunion dinner with CV on sat (nice fruits and cakes,haha...)+[oops,thanx to eve (or rather,her maid) for fishraw kosong..haha,like back to sec sch days],dinner with half strength igualan on sun..sigh,i dun wanna be proactive anymore,i dun wanna organise anything anymore...no full strength :( sorry legend for bringing ur camera for nothing...

bad weekend...no work=no money...no studying...must study!! must earn the chance to eat the not-particularly-filling food at techedge! asian cuisine at yih!
be productive~~!!!

Post-CNY

so...did not visit much,did not do much work,did not do anything productive/constructive (sleeping doesn't count). did finish god of war,did rearrange and tidy up my room (though it was a lil' slipshod,haha... content :)

oh well..anyway surprised bui on CNY eve's eve,haha...thanx to Yien n clubber for the intelligence updates..nua'd the holidays away,finally decided to get my hands off the ps2 after completing god of war (cool game,btw...lotsa gore,yay!)..tink it'll have a sequel,can't wait :P

eh,super belated,but thanx to igualans + flo for my (oso belated) present,haha...erm,bui will get his after he gets back...ang can decide wat he wants,or if he thinks he's already got a very good present from his trip le then nvm oso can,haha...


sianz,i think all automated machines should have a limit of how many transactions a person an make one time..just now at cash deposit machine,the auntie spent smelly-smelly 15min at the machine lor...dunno how many accounts she needed deposit cash into...n then some notes kena rejected she fished around for other notes,kns...should limit maybe 3 transactions max at one time..after that still want more transactions?back of the queue please..

ahem,whine end...

sianz,dunno if witchy free or not...if not think it'll be a few months later before we can meet up loh..

sianz,i realized i lost all of my mcr n most of my papa roach songs...oh,n spineshank..how to live without them?sigh....nvm,think i have them somewhere..

sianz,i think i'm in a state of anxiety...at least,i am if i remember what doc gana said...the tension between acting on desires and appropriateness of those actions.or sth like that.sigh,i dun remember nuts about that module,n it was one of my fave classes [if only mainly because of his liberal use of semantics-his words (paraphrased)]...

sigh...

Taking Back Sundays...

i am smitten with Transmetropolitan... it may well be the last series i read before i go..seriously, i think the end is near...

a better week...i hope...

yay,i can think about selling VV tix again (for now,at least),mwahaha...

ran just now,nice weather to run in...cooling...on the other hand,my timing was 1 min slower than my last run, + my shoes got muddy + i got bored running in circles...still,i think i shud make it a choir-practice-ly thing...

sianz,i woke up n i feel like shit...ok,not that bad,but not good...i am seeing too many parallels, and similarities...yoohoo!!get a brain (a functional one,not that sorry excuse for grey matter that u r using now) and see more perpendicular lines-at least they intersect to form points...
erm,i was tokking cock,nvm...
neway,hope it was work,but if it isn't,hope its better now... but hope its just my sway mouth...see?i do lotsa hoping,i'm actually an optimist!!! :D

sianz,was with jack in the afternoon...he never sour me~~sigh...n he said something i didn't expect to hear though i've thought about it often enough...i suppose i shud start hearing it more often,get some adaptation...though it'd be nice if i dun actually have to see it..wait,i revise that - it'd be nice if i dun have to see it (while still having my sense of sight - wouldn't wanna go blind)...i know he was just kidding,but still..kinda sucky...

sigh,i'm trying to be proactive liao lor,but ang got reply!!!!!

.

'tis a bad week, for some of us.well,badder for some than others,but bad nonetheless.

thanx for being honest.hope all works out well.

too many parallels go nowhere...actually too few parallels go nowhere as well,i suppose.

i need this so very much,right now..

i need to brush up on my WCS - didn't actually see that one coming,though i'm not sure how i managed that.
maybe i shud just quit everything and save everybody the trouble.
i envy wes|ey gibs0n,at least in the beginning.

2nd week of studies..hooray.not.

ok,i've been slack..
been doing a little readings, trying to keep up with them so i don't drown by midterm break..from the first lectures, i regret taking one module,the rest so far still ok.that one seemed quite lungs.well,from the first impression anyway..and then cores screwed up and sent me an erroneous email about tutorial..lucky i banked on the reliability of AnnYouAss to screw up and din mess with my choices.

anyway met up with igualans last fri at IV's house..yay,longtime no see brother liao...and brownie(?) damn string-stone la,run to me wen i got food,bochup me wen he dun wanna eat :( anyway got the dvd from wayne le,haha...shiok~~!! anyway hope we can have a full strength one in feb head..


then went back to css on sat,longtime no go...i dun like the toilets anymore (at least,the 3rd floor ones),not clean le :( but i havn't gone walking around yet,maybe i go see the old classroom,ah bo no chance in future le..

stressball squeezing over the past few days (n no, i'm not exceptionally stressed), it has its opportunity costs in terms of time.no good.hmm...everything will be cool in may.i think (n hope).

neway i'm proud of myself - i said no to a her for more than 10 times!! YES!!! my first step towards ending Kaiciusness!!!

Damn Sianz...

raining everyday...tink we may have a drought in feb,this few days gonna finish the rain quota for 1st quarter of 06 liao,kns...2 lectures today,1st one was ok..2nd one,tsk,ok for 1st half...after that it was a challenge to remain conscious,kns...then choir prac,after that bia home..tink that'll be my SOP to go home liao - good...

non-productive again today,kns...i should leave the stressball squeezing for when i actually have the time to squeeze it,like maybe never...put it in a box n see it only when i'm gonna die..maybe not even then..sayonara stressball...

right.if it were that easy,shrinks and therapists would be eating air...

neway last week someone from long ago called,but i wasn't home,shit...every now n then wondered how he's doing...amazing,though i'm not surprised,he has seen broken red dust...kinda sad though...

few days back had a different sandman,someone from way back..n this didn't involve any reprimand,rebuke,or piak#.refreshingly non-contributory to depression..

# Sound effect, not supposed to mean anything.

Happy New Year...

ok,so the 1st post of the new year will have no effect on me watsoever,i was just lazy...

so..

the festive season has come and gone...well,i didn't feel very festive,but at least i met up with witchy on new year's eve...well,a short while but at least managed to meet in 2005,haha..after that went to wil's and then kx's,thanx to all who made it successful! erm...sorry i was sleeping most of the time,haha...at least i know kx has comfy cushions :P

well,term has started,but i dun feel like it has started leh (maybe cuz it hasn't,at least for me..)
sianz,loads of work to do...anticipating a lotta crap this sem..well,it'll be better by Mar..i hope...

+ i'm broke...n not normal broke - dirt broke...

neway went out with meng n han...rained a bit again,but at least not as bad as sunday...erm,hard to outrain sunday man...neway walked around,then went to meng's room to game with han while he went to shake his bon bons,haha...

i.am.so.dirt.broke.

shall look forward to March...