Violent

History of Violence...i kinda like it,though it was just that bit too..graphic sometimes...oh well,it was my most-eagerly anticipated movie of the century,if only because i was dining,walking around town,killing FOUR + hours of time...sigh,shouldn't meet too early if watching midnite show...

sianz...while walking around n killing time,i came across 3 items that would have made better gifts..(actually i think i can find better gifts even if i just close my eyes and grab whatever items i can..oh watever,back to the point..) i found THREE items,any one of which could hav made a much much better gift...sianz...why lemme see how it could have been,instead of letting me see how it could be?kns...

Why am i still awake??

sianz...i dunno wat i'm doing online still...its not like i have anything to do...sianz...

tempted to go fr@nz ferdin@nd concert next feb,but...i realize i'm not really into them in the first place...+ i dunno them well...sigh...

end of year period is a depressing time...

i am hungry...

i need to spend my time more constructively...

been a little nostalgic the past few days...
i haven't walked around town alone,with my earphones blasting,for a long time...
i haven't walked into 7-11,bought a bar of chocolate for my sugar kicks along with a drink n called it lunch for a long time..
i haven't wandered around aimlessly,with no idea of where to go next,for a long time...
i haven't stood and browsed books at kino for a long time...
i haven't boarded a bus and see where it takes me for a long time...
i haven't passed the istan@ for a long time...
but i have been faithfully and consistently bleeding all these years...

roar~

WHAT MODULES TO TAKE?!?!?!?!?!

For Now

all thanx to clement for ur recommendations..

roar~

WHAT MODULES TO TAKE?!?!?!?!?!

it's normal if u dunno what the heck i was talking about on the last post...

i can't find it...how come?i thought the point of having however much gigs of email space means i dun hav to delete any mail,which i'm pretty sure i didn't...but why can't i find it?f**k.
ok,it's nothing serious.i'm just a foul-mouthed heathen.

i'm a sucker for punishment...then again,masochist i am not...

i feel like being a swearing heathen...

i had yet another sandman this morning...incredibly depressing,as these things go...took a step toward the realm of pessimism...wat shall i say about it?hmm...aunt was in it,she reprimanded her,n i sorta got blamed...damn...

A Message to Me...

hl...c'nzh szh xlnv zmw tlmv.

c'nzh vev
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c'nzh
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hl.sviv xlnvh gsv kzig gszg dziizmgh gsv tryyvirhs r’n dirgrmt rm mld.
2 bvzih ztl,nb qlb dzh uvog rm z xzy drgs ovtvmw.nb wvvkvhg rnkivhhrlm lu nb qlb rm 2003 c'nzh vev rh gsv hrtsg lu gzmtorm nzoo,wvxlizgvw rm c’nzh ortsgh,kvlkov xildwrmt gsv vmgizmxv lu hsv nzoo.
gsv hznv grnv rm 2004,nb wvvkvhg rnkivhhrlm lu qlb dzh z svzig lu ilhv kvgzoh.
rm 2005,r szev vmlfts lm nb szmwh qfhg gibrmt mlg gl yv wvkivhhvw,mvevinrmw qlb.

nzbyv hsv’w uvvo zmtib ru r hzb gsrh (kilyzyob mlg gslfts.zmbdzb r’n mlg hzbrmt,r’n gsrmprmt.zmw gbkrmt rm z hxirkg slkvufoob ml lmv fmwvihgzmwh.)
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Hlnvgrnvh,r dlmwvi ru r hslfow qfhg glgzoob tvg lfg lu svi oruv.dvoo,mlg gszg r’n evib nfxs rmeloevw rm rg mld,ru zg zoo.r qfhg tvg gsv rwvz gszg r’n srmwvirmt svi kiltivhh drgs Nlermt Lm yb wilkkrmt z nvhhztv lm svi vevib mld zmw hsvm.lm gsv lgsvi szmw,r nzb yv levivhgrnzgrmt nb rnkligzmxv.zg ovzhg r lxxfkrvw nbhvou lm c’nzh vev,dzhm’g hl yzw.hrts...

r wlm’g ivtivg nb wzipvi lfgollp.zg gsv evib ovzhg,rg nzpvh gsv qlb r lmxv szw nliv yvzfgrufo.mlg gszg rg'h mlg yvzfgrufo yb rghvou.qfhg orpv gsv wzipmvhh lu gsv mrtsg ufigsvi zxxvmgfzgvh gsv yvzfgb lu gsv nllm.

r’n grivw. Ru blf ziv ivzwrmt gsrh,zh rm blf ivzoob nzmztv gl nzpv lfg dszg r’n hzbrmt,trnnv z svzwhfk xzm?prmqz vnyziizhhrmt ovs,szsz...ru blf qlm’g pmld nv,blf kilyzyob wfmml vczxgob dszg r’n gzoprmt zylfg,hl...trnnv z svzwhfk ru blf dzmmz,ru mlg gsvm rg kilyzyob wlvhm’g nzggvi zmbsld.

Nviib Xsirhgnzh gl gsv dliow.

of deflation and empty glasses-thought-full

on friday morning,i was pretty happy...though it was a long day at work (with kids running around half the time),but still,i was pleased with the results...

by friday night,i was a little deflated,but i thought it was alrite,cuz i still had time...

by sat morning,i was a little apprehensive...harder than i thought..obviously i dun tink enuff..

by sat nite,i was pure glass-not-full...i tink its gonna be one spectacular flop...

on hindsight,i suppose i had been optimistic at the start?never thought that'd happen to me..now i know better-dun ever be optimistic,being realistic with a touch of pessimism is enuff...

one.huge.load.of.crap.

ending hols...kns...

ok..so...
results out le,overall improved by abit..unexpected results from modules in both good n bad ways,but nvm,haha...neway saw a lot of people on mon,after work..

saw meiyun,mingwei,weiming,alvin530...tokked a bit...mingwei looks super hap with his tats,alvin looks more refined,haha...

sianz,holidays ending soon le,i'm still broke n my room's still messy...comp problem's still not resolved,still havn't met up with witchy...no carolling for me this year,i bloody hate the crowds...

neway happy today,new comics,haha...ult secret,new academy x,etc...long day at work,legs sour sour...tired...eyes gonna pop out liao,kns...

1/3 holidays gone...

(fmi,i'm talking about tuesday here)
and my room's still a mess...yes yes,then i shud go do sth abt it 'stead of whining all the time...hey wat r u,my mum?nvm...great day at work today..n by great,i mean very few people bugged me at work...so,its not that great for my boss...nvm,again...

i must finish castlevania quickly,ah boh x'mas come le n i still havn't finish my quota...by x'mas i need to take out my 2 fave games again n start *verb*-ing things all over again...well,punisher was part of the plan form the start,but godofwar i wanna revisit cuz i damn gian after seeing its pic on a magazine cover,haha...maybe if i finish castlevania early,i can sneak in time to try out ult spiderman again,haha...sianz,was looking fwd to that one...oh well,super sianz...n i had yet another sandman again last night,kns...

on the bright side,at least the threat of throat ulcer has abated now,if that of sickness has not...i shud just find 1 day n sleep my day away ar...just 1 day...

n,i've finished preacher...apart from the ancient history,that is...cool,though i'm thankful for the relatively cartoonish art..any more realistic n i think i'll puke...

n the results r out in less than 10 days time...wth,real morale booster...

n i hope i get to meet up with witchy,who also ran the std chartered run...21k somemore...

yes.i've hoped again today...1 step closer to the realm of glass_half_full-ville.

yay.

drool me to death...

bloody hell,i think i may get a visit from the ulcer again...

of squeezing stress balls and ...

had quite a bit of fun throwing away my old readings while clearing my storage box just now...i'll probably never use them again neway...wasteful,half of them i've never even read before...

dammit,i can't get away for next sat...so.damn.sianz.i wonder if witchy's unhappy...probably not...

sigh...i am stupid...n i am stupid..wait,thought i said that already?am i proving my point unnecessarily here?i have done,am doing,n will probably continue to do things that r stupid n self-detrimental...

oh bloody hell,quit squeezing the stress ball already!!where do i find my moses?sigh...for ur sanity's sake,i hope i'm not making much sense tya...

1 week down...

had lunch today...mushroom soup was nice...neway went to watch HP n goblet of fire after that...din plan to watch,until Gna mentioned some guy dying,haha...cool~neway it is the darkest of the series...good...neway disappointed that the skull guy i saw from trailer wasn't really a skull guy at all,just skullish-mask-wearing kakias of the Bad Guy..oh well,the hooded statue in the graveyard was cool,so it makes up for that...

sianz,went to yih cblc,n co-op today before meeting for lunch...both closed..how swey can i get?kns...oh well,go next week then...

despite my reservations about the weis book,i always seem to find myself held,as long as i start reading...same for SW books also...acquired tastes,i suppose,haha...just a bit sian that i'll have to wait a long time for the next book in the respective series to be published...
sianz,both books finished...n despite my intention to read sth non-fiction,i just can't bring myself to do it...not if its outside of the Must-Read category of non-fiction i.e. module readings...so.guess i'll just go library to hunt for fiction then :P yay~!

hmm...parts of wat clement posted hit pretty close to home...i suppose its a universal truth,much like wat Tim B.rn.rd said some months back...oh well...

i hadn't realized that its only been a week since my exams officially ended...felt like a long time...-->i've been in holiday mood since before my last paper,sigh...dr BML said that we had nothing to worry about,regarding thailand...i only hope he wasn't being too kind...nehow,there're still 4 more that require the miracle of moderation...sigh...

i hope my cap doesn't drop...i hope my sis goes out on x'mas eve...i hope i kiss n make up with my comp,though i havn't initiated the making up (n its up to me to do that cuz it's kinda stupid to expect it to initiate anything ain't it?), i hope i can stop coughing soon (thanx much,now i noe i wun die from this cough,no need to demonstrate its ineptness liao),i hope i wun make the wrong choice come next sem,i hope i'll be in the position to make a choice come next sem,i hope i'm able to not work next sat...cool.so much hope in my life,who needs pessimism?shoo~pessimism can ____(verb, present tense,to be filled in by the reader) off now,i have my (free) hope with me...

tired...my room's still a mess...i need to clean it up soon...
Operation Pillow Headbutt commencing soon...

Comics

i just had a sudden urge to blog about them...

i really like Preacher, though it'll probably rattle the cages of the hardcore religious

Losers are cool...hope the movie plans go well..

Y:The Last Man also nice...

haven't really developed an interest in Constantine,but maybe i'll start sometime in future...now Preacher is enough for religious themed..

needless to say,none of these would survive intact were they made into movies...not even R21...oh well,can't have it all...

bored...

sigh...ok,6th dec now...

half empty glass - my room's still a mess,ult spiderman can't load,my comp's still giving me the cold shoulder n x'mas is coming..great.

however,if the glass is half full,i have completed x-men legends 2,i still am interested in castlevania,n i have met up with clubber,n planning to meet witchy soon...n i can always bring punisher outta retirement to tide me thru x'mas :)

well,ran the very short dist on sunday,pretty shiok...saw a few frens there...then played soccer on monday,n then realized that i was working later that day.so had to bia cab down to oc,heavy rain somemore..on the brightside,i said no to a salesperson of the opposite gender,haha..YES!!1st step taken to not be a kz anymore!!neway came home with a sore back,bum and legs..+ feverish...slept it off..feel better now,tho still a lil' feverish...

so woke up to watch aeon flux solo...lucky never watch yesterday,ah bo they confirm complain like crazy...erm,not very good la,i prefer sky high,though clubber seems to have a less-than-flattering opinion of it :P then went to town to buy some stuff...n its a headache..wat to buy??i need witchy...

oh well,hope i get to go to sch early tml,wanna go lib check out some books...gonna do my pillow headbutting now..

Finally...

goal...after so long...finally...